Break the Cycle

Same old ceiling over my head
Inquiringly staring at me
It's wondering how far
I'm gonna lead up this conversation
Tonight it's different
I'm awake
To see some colors' changing
The echoe's fading
Maybe I'm free to leave my bed
Maybe I'll rip that burden from me
And now that everything's dismantled
And every burning ruin's torn down
I should erase, I'd better break
This cycle somehow
And leave you there behind
It's not the trust I've wasted, I don't regret it
It's the inability to find myself again
It's not the time invested, I don't regret it
You told me how to walk
And now my feet are scrambling
Tonight I release myself from pain
Same old story
Oh darling, I will make sense of my sleepless night
I'll laugh at you while I drown
Same old feeling holding my head
That part of me willing to heal
What's left of your disease
Of your increasing, obscene temptation
Will try to split me away from you
Will try to break this embrace
To kill what remains
I don't wanna leave that dream of you
Even if it's burning my entire world
And now that everything's dismantled
And every burning ruin's torn down
I should erase, I'd better break
This cycle somehow

And leave you there behind
I unleashed my hate
For what it matters
And let the slag still drenched in me
Flowing away as mud infected
As mud infecting me
Sometimes I wish I could be that self-serving
Like everybody else
But I'm not
Cause I can't
Gloss over my mistakes
Sometimes I'd rather burn
I'd rather burn my entire vanity
For a piece of your forgiveness
And now that everything's dismantled
And every burning ruin's torn down
I should erase, I'd better break
The cycle somehow
And leave you there behind