Fallen Father

I remember the day began in my driver's seat just laying back
Riding in a peaceful state alone where no people hate
Controlling trash talk when I'm rolling passed cops
Listening to slipknot then ending up in hip hop
Let the bass punch until you feel your face crunch
I'm in no rush there's no need to show hurry
When you're free with no worries
Watching all the snow flurries with your vision so blurry
Should've known all was too great before the phone call where you say
Got a little bad news went in the hospital at noon
I'm a dead man walking and I'm bound to collapse
I'm like aww whoever said that's talking bullcrap
Okay I'll be right there great I hate nightmares
It came out of nowhere I'm too young to go there
And it is no fair
I skipped the lunch menu because I did have a hunch it's true
I sat in room 402 I'm chatting but you're so blue
I don't know what to do
The cancer started in your colon that was when your heart was stolen
Then it passed into your brain I can't imagine all the pain
And that was when I realized I can't do shit you will die

There is no doubt that I will miss you bro
All my life you always tried your best to help me grow
Into a man who will and not a man who won't
And can do anything my heart tells me so
You always taught me the difference in right and wrong
And told me I will always be bright and strong
As you decompose I now suppose I have to cope
Wondering if I now turned out how you wanted and hoped

I always wanted to tell you that I write rap music
But I knew there's no way in hell you might have approved it
But on the other hand I understand and I know why
Rappers are the low lives
Some but not all and your son will not fall
And no one will change me dad but I feel strangely bad
So I made a pact to make it using rap to save me
They say that I may be crazy that's what they see cause they ain't me
Hate me it don't phase me
Now I'm left with more incoherent times than not
And man I'm hoping that you're hearing all these rhymes I got
And today I write just for you and it's hardcore
All these words I must pour through cause this heart's sore
From holding your lifeless hand in mine as your wife just stands in line
You'd never fail in front of me you showed me what I want to see
I'll take your last name to the top in the fast lane I won't stop
Your last word I won't forget man it was like the best pep
They said you raised a fine boy you looked at me and said yep
When you're up on those clouds I'm hoping that you're so proud
With a smile and no frowns but before I go now
Know I saw your last breath I'll see you again passed death

There is no doubt that I will miss you bro
All my life you always tried your best to help me grow
Into a man who will and not a man who won't
And can do anything my heart tells me so
You always taught me the difference in right and wrong
And told me I will always be bright and strong
As you decompose I now suppose I have to cope
Wondering if I now turned out how you wanted and hoped

I never really thought of how easy and fast
A normal life of the present can turn to past
Nothing ever lasts not even your other half
You hear the truth when your back's turned and now you have learned
That your true friends say they will be with you until the end
Once you look away they'll take a blade and kill you then
As you live how much time of it will you spend
In the pointless stage of life where you still pretend
That death won't happen I could die right here while I'm rapping
And it will keep you guessing leave you stressing
If sin is all you're messing with
It makes this the most greatest intense suspense
And it's the one thing us humans have no wins against
It's our shadow that will follow everywhere we all go
So why is something this serious got to be so mysterious
And no one can be sure or to be exact when
Get up off your ass I'm the director yelling action
We are born to live and we live to die
Cause one life is all we live we don't get another try
Don't try to smother life with ruining others lives
You can't hide under pride or your covers of lies
And sit there and wonder why you never discovered the light

There is no doubt that I will miss you bro
All my life you always tried your best to help me grow
Into a man who will and not a man who won't
And can do anything my heart tells me so
You always taught me the difference in right and wrong
And told me I will always be bright and strong
As you decompose I now suppose I have to cope
Wondering if I now turned out how you wanted and hoped