Be Honest

Okay, be honest
You promised
You didn't
Want me to leave
Then why'd you go behind my back and cheat?
I wanted to give our son a good life
But I couldn't with all the anger you brought
I'm not
Trying to push all the blame
But how can I not?
The fighting needed to stop
I was taught
Not to give in to the world
I fought
Harder every day
But it wasn't enough
And now were gone
From each other
That's what's best
For our son
I can't lie
I'm still hurt
All the fights
In my mind
Goes rewind
Every night
I remember this plight
You still won't admit
Just be honest
I can't take it
You were dating him
While still married to me
This is bad for my health
And just be honest with yourself
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I won't lie
I want revenge
Even though it's not mine to give
One day
He'll get his
But I gotta stay outta that trench
And quit focusing on this
And focus on my own perseverance
I got my head in the clouds
A personal fowl
Now I'm knocked 6 feet down
Like I'm dead
And my head just pounds
Like it'll never be right
I try to focus on my own life
But I'm tired
And mentally weary
And clearly
You wanted someone else to hold you
He wasn't there
But I was there when my son was born too
As well as you
I can't say
That I forgave him
One day maybe
I don't know when
That's when
God is really gotta take my heart
Make it
Penetrate it
For a new start
Yeah
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I don't know when God will take me
And change me
Maybe I'm not letting Him
Enter my heart
Do I really like this?
Why am I fighting it?
Why do I keep on trying it?
I don't know why
I keep on, just hiding it
My fear inside of me
I was always afraid to loose my son
That's why I didn't fight him
Cus I was scared that I wasn't gonna stop
I just wanted the truth
That's why I'm so resentful
I can't take the lies
And for a while I bought into them
I didn't wanna believe
What I knew to be
100% truth
I'm talking to you
The scared girl that
Used to be my wife
And now we signed these divorce papers
You cheated on me
In every aspect
But I remained faithful
And Biblically
I'm in the right
No more fighting
Even in God's eyes
I try to do right
Even by you
Yes, I wanted to knock his head through
A brick wall
But that's not it
God, help me forgive him
No matter what
I'm done
Hanging on to this
I don't know why
I'm drawn to this
Let me ponder this
She may never be honest
But that's okay
Cus I promise
When this ends
I'll forgive him
And live in
The right way
Until my very end
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