I Get It

You don't wanna move. I get it
Goals different. In truth, I get it
Stressed out by your work and your school and I get it but it's swallowing the pill that's unpleasant

I get it but that don't make it easy
Thinking I was in it for the long haul, Halsey to my Eazy
Next thing I'm in a phone call, what? You don't need me?
I stress you out more, and you love me but you're leaving?
Legs shaking, a pulse that I can hear racing
Prayers blazing, "God, no, please change it"
Guess I'll sit down in my bed
How do I breathe in again?
That's it, I'ma die the singlest I've been in years
I have a disconnect
Between what I think of it, and what it turns out that is reality's experience
I think that I won't stay sad, that I can live by faith then
My heart drops when I see you, I can't look you in your face, damn
I don't wanna go through all the breaking
But I can't make you do the second place thing
I wanna stop music, get married, have some kids, and
Spend the rest of my life with my best friend but instead...

You don't wanna move. I get it
Goals different. In truth, I get it
Stressed out by your work and your school and I get it but it's swallowing the pill that's unpleasant
You want a little you, I get it
You're not ready for a groom, I get it
Stressed out by the girls you listen to and I get it but acceptance is a whole other lesson

Pick it back up, I left off for a chorus
It's not because the flow or ideas are different at all it's
Simply because I feel emotionally exhausted and now I'm on the offence
If this is how maturity feels, I don't feel like liking it
I prefer avoiding pain I'm not enjoying the Nicodin
God's plan and all that, I put it in writing and that means it really matters: to me, I'll never try pretend
I defend emotions like "I think I'll be fine"
But you know that won't happen if you ain't gon' be mine
I can live by faith, and like an angel we try
Claim growth in my haste like the nature refined
I have some dark days, in others I do better but
In the worst moments, it's all I want just to message ya
I have to get my phone confiscated not to mess you up
Cause all that I would text would have compromises so desperate
This is what happens when you break up with a songwriter
Of course I'm gonna write about you, you changed my whole life
You're not just a fling, so much more than an all-nighter
I'd give anything for God's plan to be small-minded
And I'll always be here if you decide that you were wrong
I say that but really you've only got till I move on
I loved you, I swear to God, but I will not wait forever
The road to feeling nothing is long and I'm aware've it
Emotions I will not cover, I'll don 'em, I will wear it
The only way is to suffer, with time it's over, I'll bear it
I write depressive songs cause I'm a depressive person
My intention's strong, and I'm guessing the worst is
I am not God, can't be blessing the verses
I've turned my heart to an aggressive wordsmith
I can't just be friends with you
Know you find that offensive
Who do I think I am?
Well... I'm not the one that ended it

You don't wanna move. I get it
Goals different. In truth, I get it
Stressed out by your work and your school and I get it but it's swallowing the pill that's unpleasant
You want a little you, I get it
You're not ready for a groom, I get it
Stressed out by the girls you listen to and I get it but acceptance is a whole other lesson

I'm not used to saying "ex"; it's killing me inside
I see you smile at a text, remember when they were mine?
Even though it's probably nothing, there's so much you're tryna hide
You're stubborn, but so am I
Now I can't talk to you for the hardest two week period
I remember and
Have to treat you like a random friend
Say a prayer for Ben
I'm still praying that you'll understand
My Snapchat stories and all that is on my Instagram
Make me look really happy: an act. We invented camera personalities
Sent lots of upside down smileys
Here's a look behind the curtain, into my mind
You find me breaking down crying
Last time this happened I felt nothing, didn't mind it
This is better, with reminders
We're perfect for each other but we're called to different climates
Hang out like nothing happened till there's something to remind us
And then it's kinda awkward, we'll never be back-in-time friends

You still don't wanna move. I get it
Goals different. Truth, I get it
Stressed out by your work, your school, I get it but it's swallowing the pill that's unpleasant
You want a little you, I get it
Still not ready for a groom, I get it
Stressed out by the girls you listen to. I get it
Acceptance is a whole other lesson

I wrote "Goodbye Ben", never thought you would be saying it
Never wanted to hurt you, I wrote a song explaining it
That'll never get released, I'm glad you enabled it
I'm glad that you were brave for this
I think you made mistakes and it's
The reason that "break up" were words that had to stain your lips
It would never be me putting end to our relationship
I'm fighting "needy ex", a stereotype, I'm made for this
I guess that what I'm saying in this song is I can't wait for us
So in summary, I guess this is enough for me
All I have to learn now is how not to love you, C
You taught me everything about emotions I could ever need
All that I was lacking, and more, put me in the lead
I don't know what I'm meant to see
Need space, just let me be
But know that I am broken, your own private amenity
Suffer this in brevity, it's all my mind will let to me
And saying that I get it's a lie that I just have to believe