Concern

People's concern is not with me
See more than the version you thought I'd be
These thoughts have me hurting I ought to free
My mind, see forced when you talk to me
C4's release, depress and I'll detonate it forcibly
Depression, giving me a cause to bleed
You're sure it's bleak, I'll take it in a worried leap
Ha
"The state where you hate isn't faith", grace you afford to me
You're worried the mould of a human being whose whole is not where I wanna be in
But why? Is there more to breathing?
If I don't want kids, is there more than breeding?
Faith on the surface and I couldn't believe it, when what I called believing begun to start depleting
Huh
Force the key in
To the doors, slammed shut when I caught the meaning
On the tour, planned not that I sought opinion from the God, in the war that I claimed to be with
Trying to fit in to God's plan, think it's got a personal meaning
On the mic stand, ripping up the flow with the feeling
And under my dad, try my best to cope with the healing
Home
I left and I moved on
Trying to recover but that's another new song
Sorry for it mother, I know I could be a nuisance, thank you for your love but I felt he wanted a new son
Think it's time that I proved wrong, every single moment, foreknowing the disapprovement
When I won the battle, the war was fought on a new front
Didn't have a voice, free will was just an illusion

It's what I need to do
It's something that isn't new
Caring for someone like you
That whatever you need I'm here as long as it don't change you

You leaving has hit me harder than I thought, more than I could've imagined
Underestimated depression you fought: feelings I could not understand then
People around that were less of importance, never even gave a damn when you abandoned your sense of what's wrong and had jumped into deep end, the water, went flailing
Fail in amazement
The brazen mistakes in calling me at three in the am, drunk off your face, and still I was patient
But patiently waiting. No action of saving
Facade of support, I'm not actively helping, but here is my hand out if only you'll take it
"I'm not gonna make it"
I've had that engrained in my head for some time, I've built on the lies and if that was fixed I'd probably break down inside, end up crying on the pavement
The Divine won't erase this
His timing won't raise Jess
Tell me why do I praise this?

It's what I need to do
It's something that isn't new
Caring for someone like you
That whatever you need I'm here as long as it don't change you
I'm here for you
I care for you
I'm telling you this much is true
That whatever you need I'm here as long as it don't change you