Train of Thought

So lately
I've been really struggling with my thoughts
What do I say when someone looks me dead in the face and says
"I don't want to be alive right now?"
Well I could say me neither but
That doesn't really help does it?
Man I already feel like I'm just rambling on and oh look, I've lost my train of thought again
Well it was worth a try... Keep fighting... I believe in You

I'm so, so close to just giving up
One more blow below the waste
It's like my whole life is corrupt
Tell me baby
Why can't you tell me the truth
I said I love you first
You never said I love you too
I love you too
Can you tell me what that means
I used that word three years
Before I even turned 16
And I still knew
I understand what it is
It's calming down water
When it's bubbling up a friz

I love you, I said on a warm summer night
You couldn't say what I wanted, I lost sight of the light
I wanna know why God, where did I go wrong
I haven't seen You in a minute, Lord I swear it's been so long

A song to God, just to tell you how I feel
Even though you know already, to the jury I appeal
Oh I'm so numb, but I can't be from the pain
I hate bipolar thoughts, that are flooding up my brain
Bipolar thoughts. been getting played a lot
I always overstep, then I lose my train of thought
All these sayings that are said at the wrong time
Locked up in the prison system didn't even do the crime
He did the time, did it all on his own
Listen up cuz black lives matter, please don't live your life alone