Changing

Change on the fact, that I never knew
Change on the fact, that I was good as doomed
Change on the chance that I would end up dead
Fed up with these clouds in my head
My bed chained my face to the floor
But I see the world ain't the problem anymore
It's me versus me, in the street, in the heat
In the change that will inevitably come
I just have to wait some
But I was lost in my own thoughts, so I had to cut them off
Payed the cost so I broke down, under the ones I loved
My windpipe seemed thin, right until I couldn't breathe
I was drowning and I tried to leave
But the escape cost was bigger than me
And therefore I see, I can't do this to my family
The music made the dead walk
Cause it was the only thing that blocked me up, to play my part

The help finally arrived, when I gave up
And to my surprise, I stood solid as a rock
Didn't know what to do, or to say
Like I would never be saved
Until my curtains finally opened
And I saw my crying face, fade

Try to decide
But I can't change time
Can't let go
Try to decide
But I can't change time
And I can't let go

Doomed to loneliness, fooled by love, interest
Me with love I guess, trust is worth the guess
I seem lost in this
My life is all a mist, I can't see through all the pain
It scares me to look again, It's cold
Throat clenching face white, eyes watering
Minds wandering, height is all I've been
I'll shatter if anyone tries anything
Luckily people don't acknowledge me or what I've been through
It's all a way to bring it through to you
But don't you dare bringing me any tissues
Petty pussy won't help this issue

Try to decide
But I can't change time
Can't let go
Try to decide
But I can't change time
And I can't let go