Wonder 'Bout the Past Sometimes

I thought that I would never make it
Past this hell hole, that I was placed in
A hole, home to no hope but a Jameson
But I finally felt at home in the music making
Breaking any myth off my name for good
Would I be the same kid if I didn't toss with
Five years aflame, that shit will fuck you brain
I almost lost it, and I hope to never see it again
But it could crawl up on me
Would I be the same with only three years of agony?
Would I need two more to better me?
Or would it turn me into a braindead machine?
Gotta remind myself, to not remain in the past
It might set you back on your ass
Set you back on the flask, so I wonder 'bout the past
To better the present, to not go back in the trap

I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if my wrong were right, would my mind change sight?
That's one reason why
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if my life was right, would I still write?
Would I be the same guy? That's why
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if I stayed despite the dark that came to light
Would I be alright? Would I
Wonder 'bout the past sometimes?
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes

I've heard people say don't let it define you
But I don't think they ever lived it through
I let that shit define me as much as the meals I eat
It built me, I take pride in my seat
It's that eight nine three mentality
I live by this philosophy, the best people come from the worst situation
Beautiful stems from the pain, that's what made 'em
That's at least what I say to justify
All this hurt that I see in my life, people that I know who had fought this fight
What do you say to the guy, who don't think he'll be alive, for the next time you'll come by?
I still don't know
What I do know is empathy don't work anymore
So that's what I told him and to my knowledge
He's gonna deal with his problems

I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if my wrong were right, would my mind change sight?
That's one reason why
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if my life was right, would I still write?
Would I be the same guy? That's why
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if I stayed despite the dark that came to light
Would I be alright? Would I
Wonder 'bout the past sometimes?
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
I wonder 'bout the
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if my wrong were right, would my mind change sight?
That's one reason why
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if my life was right, would I still write?
Would I be the same guy? That's why
I wonder 'bout the past sometimes
Even if I stayed despite the dark that came to light
Would I be alright? Would I
Wonder 'bout the past sometimes?