I Forgive You

Imma start this off by saying this is closure for me
And put it in a song cause my voice always cracks when we speak
And it's so hard for me to tell you how you made me feel
So imma let this world feel my pain so you can know i'm for real
First let me apologize for the things I know that I've done
Than imma forgive you for your shit cause I can no longer run
From what i'm holding within cause if I do I won't win
I gotta let this shit go so I can move on with my kid
I forgive you for not being who you said you would be
Even tho you told me that you loved me unconditionally
Even tho you got me out here looking like a fool in these streets
Even tho you fucked me up so bad that I got low self esteem
I forgive you for those nights that you never came home
And I forgive for those days that you made me feel alone
And I forgive you those times that you pushed me to the side
With all of your lies and all them painful tears that I cried
I forgive you for not moving how you said you would move
And I forgive you for not doing what you said you would do
And I forgive you for these scars and these internal wounds
Yo I forgive you even tho I didn't think that I could
I forgive you for the stress that you caused on my life
And I forgive you for the love lost through your ego and pride
Yo I forgive you but it's not forgetful at all
And just know it'll never be the same not at all like before
Life just different now i'm seeing things clearly these days
No more believing in the hype of your fraudulent ways
And no more crying every night you making me feel like a clown
No more thinking when I'm not there are u holding me down
No more feeling like i will never be all that you need
I'm done with that part of my life yo i'm finally free
I'm moving on im leveling up i'm tryna get right with god
Building a life without struggles taking my son to the top

Real shit they say if you have someone there
That stays through the bull shit and pain
You never violate they trust and they gon always remain
You keep em close to your heart and never take em in vain

You a dummy yo the way you operate so funny tho
Like how you expect to progress when you ain't willing to grow
You gotta be grown about your shit
And take the blame for your actions
Stop hurting people for your own satisfaction
You won't make it far in life until your honest with yourself
I did those things to you cause I want you to know just how I felt
When you played with my heart and put my trust on the line
And you came around me acting fine
Like to my pain you was blind
You was fraudin' all the while making sure you was good
You took my love for granted and thru it all I still stood
By your side but not no more I'm done with that shit
I'm not gullible like I was i'm no longer that chick
I forgive you to the point that I no longer desire
To fix what's broken with us two
I'd rather let this shit ride out
Yo I forgive you I swear I've learned so much from this pain
I learned enough to know I don't deserve to feel all these ways
Where I'm at in life I promise I'm a whole different me
Grew enough to let you go now I can finally breathe
I'm so proud of who I am and how far I've come
I can love you from a distance I don't have to be dumb
Yo I forgive you