Nylah's Story

Early monday morning when Nylah woke up
Wit a smile on her face and this feeling in her gut
Like today would be good but her thoughts ran deep
Than the tears fell down and reality struck
See everyday was familiar with the last
She'd awake feeling hopeful thinking she might get past
What happened last night when she close her eyes
And how even her faith couldn't silence her cries
Her days started with her siblings and her mom
Having a meal at the table with forgiveness in her heart
Nobody peeped the pain but as time went on
She pushed back the thoughts but the shit got hard
She had a passion for art and design
So she figured doing that would ease her mind
But even when she picked up a brush or a pen
She couldn't drown out all the darkness within

Baby girl I know you're going through some things
And I know there is nothing to be said
That can take away all your pain
But if you ever feel like your in this world alone
Just remember God loves you
And you gotta be strong so strong

She had thoughts of committing suicide
But she knew she couldn't leave all her loved ones behind
Just the fact that those thoughts even cross her mind
Let her know for sure that she was dying iniside
Breaking apart losing her faith
Couldn't fathom why she still had to look this man in his face
Life's feeling like it's nothing but a huge disgrace
Needing a way out knowing she gotta leave this place
She knew she had a voice but no one to listen up
And thought if she cried out who would really give a fuck
So now Being silent was the only thing she knew
I mean he had her thinking no one would believe in her truth
It's like what could she do who does she tell
How could she prove no matter how she moved about it she'd lose
And if she went to her mom about what he put her through
The way that she was in love no telling who she would choose
All the affection and the smiles and the roles that he played
Had moms thinking he was a King she was stuck in her ways
Blindsided by his charm damn he had her mad confused
She put her trust in this fool she overlooked the abuse
The signs were there and the tears done fell
It was unrealistic to her mother she was under a spell
Nylah had enough so her breaking point done hit
She was in it alone she had to end this shit

Baby girl I know you're going through some things
And I know there is nothing to be said
That can take away all your pain
But if you ever feel like your in this world alone
Just remember God loves you
And you gotta be strong so strong

She sat down on the side of her bed
Shit that could never be undone was overclouding her head
And deep inside there was a battle with her heart and her brain
All she knew is that she never wanted to feel this again
She reached under her pillow put her hand on the gun
Nervous cause she heard him coming but what if he runs
She lift her hand up and got a steady aim at the door
And all you heard was a boom and his body hit the floor