Celestial Dream

Storm clouds overhead
And nothing else yet
The crack and thud of rolling thunder
As it reaches my bed
Covers reality in white
Gives me something new to endure
Something light to make me feel
Something new, anything at all
Flicker, flicker
Then ash and dust
Before I awaken, tell me
Have I done what I must?

The face
Of what I wanted to see
Eludes me
Replaced
By an impostor
Who seems to me
Just like everything
I hoped it would be
Who knows my heart
And how to destroy it
But waits instead
In locked up rooms that I have filled with dread
Just to watch me, as I
I begin to crumble
And I begin to notice
That she made me do this

I know that none of this is real
I can see through the masquerade
I can tell by the mask you made
Did you think it would fool me?
There's something in the smell of your hair
And I see in the clothes you wear
Something in the sound of your voice
Over coffee and cigarettes
When I awaken I'll be haunted
By the ghosts I thought I passed
Only to cast a doubt
On everything that I believed until now

A new memory
That I can never erase
Something new for me to know
That I can't escape

The face
Of what I wanted to see
Keeps me in place
Takes a hold
And whispers to me
That she will never set me free
And tightens her grip
While mine loosens
As every breath becomes harder
And my vision gets darker
There's so much decay
All the wiring, all in frays
All my senses in disarray
All my senses in disarray