Ruse

Her name escapes me
Caught inside this cycle
Can't break it
Lost within the sounds

By forcing it you
You aren't in pain but you know
That dull ache will grow
Into a giant

One day (one day)
You'll fade (you'll fade)
Wonder what you've made
What you will leave
Could he believe
That I catch you staring
Oh tell me now
Do you honestly
Think of me like that?

Whatever the answer
Whatever the cost

I lay down my life for you now
Are you scared cause I am too
From this point on it's just me and you

Against the world
Without the damage

Nightmares coming true
I can recall
Every one over and over

Hold your breath in deeply
I will steal it
And shatter the stained glass

You spent 23 years painting
Abstaining from what you're craving
Developing new cravings to keep you from obtaining
Nothing more than you're given
Fuck the man when you're drinking
But not really your mind melted
To the fat and animal heat

I am self control
Duct taped and bound in the basement
Complacent to just be left alone
No please, please no please

Don't ask don't tell yourself
Have the fucking self respect to at least be honest
When it's just you and yourself
Nobody does it's possible

To live yourself
And love yourself
It all gets better
I promise

I lay down my life for you now
Are you scared cause I am too
From this point on it's just me and you

Against the world
Within the damage

Dirt all over my fingers and hands
Oh now you want to be a man?
Hard labor laced with
A lover's bruise
Amused to find it born anew

Why delay what we're here to do?
I'm finding every
Day before this was
Nothing but a clever ruse

And when it's gone
You'll know I'm sorry

Lucid yet astral project
My insecurities within your sweaty palms
The secret lies there you tell to yourself
To your health is gone you husk
Never alive never enough
That sweet shopping high
Who are you kidding kid
I am not legion I am king

Slaughter pretty young things like lambs
And coexist with the planets
Birthing a bitch, fake illegitimate claim
On your father's good name
Once you have him to blame it's never the same
When you die your body remains
But you finally escape

I am legion, I am smoke, I am king, I am not broke
I am man, I am stronger than I can ever know
Within the tones within your heart lies the moment you decided
To become open minded
And stop rewinding the countless tape
Scratches government sanctioned reality lapses
When it snaps you are either broke or you know that time
Isn't timeless
Work your purest fingers to the bone
And peace is all that you will ever know