Rose Colored

Wrong place, wrong time
Wrong words, wrong rhymes
Wrong everything, I never do it right
And my slights keep me up every night
Just worrying about every thing in my life
I can't sleep
And I wonder is it only me
Who feels the weight of the world round his neck like a noose
You have the same problems too, yeah I know you do
And it's all the same no matter who you talk to

What am I doing? Who should I be screwing?
What should I be writing? What should I be fighting for?
What's my future have in store?
Born to be average and nothing more?
And I knew since before I was 9
Sometimes I'd like guys, sometimes like girls
All bi, half gay, half straight
Walking through the world trying to find my place
Another thing to add to the pile
Dear God it's Kyle we ain't talked in a while
But I could really use your number on speed dial

Cause of
All the things that I said all the people I hurt
All the girls and the guys that I lied to
And tried to woo only made it worse
Another lesson that I didn't learn
While the candle burned from both ends
I'm out for a win I can't go home yet
I won't give up the chance to get you into my bed
Please just forget everything I said

When I'm high I love you
When sober I don't
Every guilty drunk text signed
Love the Patrone, yeah

I once was young and so afraid
And so alone and out of place
I'm older now it feels the same
Does it get better, better yeah
Well I knew why you had to stay
But you're still here, are you okay?
Looking back now it all just fades
It's all rose colored, colored yeah

My guilty conscious could I get beyond it?
I don't really know to be honest
Feeling frozen out in the open
Way too exposed why am I so broken?

Reading through texts trying to piece it together
What the fuck is wrong with me why can't I remember?
But the truth is I knew what I was doing
But lacked the self control to put an end to it
All of these problems I could have fixed
Had each morning not felt like the apocalypse

Thinking things through
Thinking things doesn't make them true
But my head thinks they do
And that's when I spiral start coming loose
Lips saying things I'll regret ah shit
Send a text the next day, "Hey, I didn't mean it"
But a part of me did oh it did don't say that you kid
Cause you're not anymore you're too old for this
You should really know better
You should know this
You should know this
You should know this

Fighting with my friends every day of the week
The problem isn't them though
It's me

I once was young and so afraid
And so alone and out of place
I'm older now it feels the same
Does it get better, better yeah
Well I knew why you had to stay
But you're still here, are you okay?
Looking back now it all just fades
It's all rose colored, colored yeah
Colored, colored yeah
It's all rose colored, colored yeah

Look, I'm sorry
I know this isn't easy
Been suffering for so long and you want to escape weekly
And it seems so fun and you feel so free
But this isn't what you need please listen to me
I'm not saying stop completely I'm saying tone it down
Better to do it now while you can still turn it around

12 Years a slave, trying to escape
All the liquor, pain and shame you don't know the toll it
Take the medicine sooner it'll calm you down greatly
So much less angry, insecure and crazy

Too much caffeine
Now I cannot sleep
Always grinding my teeth
Everything hurts getting worse every week

When I was thirteen I knew the enemy well
All his tricks and his schemes
All the alarm bells
Was there ever a time
When I didn't feel so alone and behind?
Oh do you have to leave?
I don't mind
I don't mind
No it's fine