Safety over Beauty

I'm full of scars but not the courageous ones
They're bleeding from the inside, it's eating me alive
My body's telling me that my soul is decaying
And this is my burden, It is bound to my grave

Rip off my skin, rip it all to shred
Give up again for eternity
Safety over beauty, Safety over beauty

I can't control this pulsion when it's kicking in
It's too much pressure for my self-control
This vicious circle's getting stronger
White flag waving to this withering curse

Can't you see through the glass that there is no cure
It's the aftermath of the real problem
I need to face my fears and get over
This dreadful sickness

I'm not empty inside I'm simply different
I was not born with this, I just overfed the sleeping beast
After all these years, I can finally understand
Where this negativity was always escaping

Let me take off my armor and show you my true self
This rusty shell with silver stains is all worn out
Help me understand the outside world

I know one day I will shine again
I will leave this shell and fly up in the sky

I can't control this pulsion when it's kicking in
It's too much pressure for my self-control
This vicious circle's getting stronger
White flag waving to this withering curse

Can't you see through the glass that there is no cure
It's the aftermath of the real problem
I need to face my fears and get over
This dreadful sickness

Accept it and ignore the looks on their faces
I shouldn't feel like this
I should raise my head
Be brave and be proud and be the positive one
This blue armor must feel like home

Will it be my last journey
Will it be my final breakthrough

Will it be my last journey
Will it be my final breakthrough home?
Will I still be remembered?