Scared to Death

I stepped up to the plane
Bound for LA
I feel my mind nosedive
Into old ways
I'm not sure how I feel
About panels, bolts and steel
A modern marvel featurin'
Everything that can go wrong

Last time I did this
I damn near died
I hid in an airport stall
Unable to cry
I downed a couple Rx pills
To get a little bit sedated
Drugs as a fix are
Something I've always hated

But hey, what's this now?
I feel quite a bit different
Catastrophe isn't on repeat
I'm grounded at 40,000 feet

It seems the feedback loop has finally shorted out
Am I safe? Am I calm? Have I outlived my doubt?
It seems the feedback loop has finally shorted out
Am I safe? Am I calm??

So when I land
I'm gonna hug my friend
I'm gonna squeeze her hand
And then I'll smile
And shout I made it
And I didn't freak out
When I land

It turns out my fears
Have quite the elderly history
They date back to my innocent youth
Harmless newborn killers

Father always put
Faith in our father
Peacefully kneeling in oaken aisles
I never took the place at his side

Admirable mother, what was she?
A teacher, worn down, but bright-eyed, stubbornly
I don't think she intended to
Teach me so damn well to be scared

The circuit board has fed a loop that goes nowhere
It starts with me, it ends with me, my script in between
The circuit board has fed a loop that goes nowhere
It starts with me, it ends with me

So when I land
I'm gonna see my friend
I'm gonna rest my hands
Upon her shoulders
I'm gonna be who she knows
And not who I've been
When I land

We might crash
Re-enact
Some horrific movie scene
Live every cut piece we didn't see
Meet the
Concrete ocean
Or fall into the iron land
But fuck if I'm gonna live scared to death
Before I die

And when I land
I'm gonna hug my friend
I'm gonna squeeze her hand
And then I'll smile
And shout I made it
And I didn't freak out
So when I land
I'm gonna see my friend
I'm gonna rest my hands
Upon her shoulders
I'm gonna be who she knows
And not who I've been
When I land



Credits
Writer(s): Brian Kohlhoff
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