I'm Sorry

Caught up in a rush like there was no tomorrow
Slipping too deep into personal sorrow
Little confidence giving way to indifference
Waiting out the rains with a melancholy gaze

Making you feel like a physical antidote
And fooled by love for a set of selfish hopes
Not intended but true nonetheless
You were treated as less

But confessions don't mean fuck all
Without a selfless heart
I mean this with whatever you'd call
What's left of me, weathered and fallen apart

I'll accept whatever you or anyone else wants to do to me
Take it as an honest man and not one who's cowardly
I made you hurt
And I'm sorry

I've looked for and uncovered my flawed understandings
Mixed up subconscious pulling strings from a hiding place
Hedonistic needs killing righteousness
And self-ignorance making halfhearted messes

I know you'd agree - damn me for who I was
For my untended troubles, but ugly is as ugly does
I made you feel manipulated and low
No admitting then, now I know

Confessions don't mean fuck all
Without a selfless heart
I mean this with whatever you'd call
What's left of me, weathered and fallen apart

I'll accept whatever you or anyone else wants to do to me
Take it as an honest man and not one who's cowardly
I made you hurt
And I'm sorry

I'll respect
My exile

You've moved on
So I will, too

You can warn
The world of

All the bad things
That I might do

But I won't
And I grieve

But no one else is gonna see
The man I used to be

But confessions don't mean fuck all
Without a selfless heart
I mean this with whatever you'd call
What's left of me, weathered and fallen apart

I'll accept whatever you or anyone else wants to do to me
Take it as an honest man and not one who's cowardly
I made you hurt
I know why you were hurt

And I'm sorry