music in my head

What am I doing
Sitting alone in this room for hours
Lost in thought playing my keyboard
I'm not really even a musician am I now?
I just hear music in my head
They're an embodiment of my soul
And I need to get them down before I go insane
Or maybe I'm already insane
The truth is I'm just sad all the time
Been like this for a while now
Sometimes I feel nothing at all
I often wonder what the meaning of life is
What is existence, what is consciousness
And is the absence of it really so terrible
What would oblivion feel like
I think it would feel great

The weather outside is gloomy
The rain is communicating my feelings
I smile in photos because I feel obliged to
I'm seeing all sorts of hues
Used to threaten to kill myself when I got angry
My parents thought I was an angsty kid just joking
Learned too many sinful things from tv
Mimicking what I was seeing in the movies
But I have always had something strange living deep inside
I don't feel alright
Every passing moment doesn't feel real
I'm at a standstill
Can you give me a hand and help me heal
Can I get a second chance at life
I wanna start over and do it right this time
My future is looking bleak
Losing hope I'm feeling weak

Wind chimes, water falls
I'm running in circles till I fall
I spend my nights lying awake
Wondering what would happen if I died today
Wind chimes, water falls
I'm running in circles till I fall
I spend my nights lying awake
Wondering what would happen if I died today

A routine is the only thing keeping me sane
I have a tendency to overthink about life it's just a game
Gotta get down everything I wanna say
In case it's the first and last album that I make
Sometimes I watch too many pornographic videos to fill up that void of human connection I so crave
I'm really a nasty piece of work it's probably best to stay away
I think rappers are modern philosophers
My soul must be corrupted by none other than Lucifer
Mac Miller said it best, the world don't give a fuck about your loneliness
All my heroes are gone so I don't know what else to do then just rest
And hope for the best I guess

Wind chimes, water falls
I'm running in circles till I fall
I spend my nights lying awake
Wondering what would happen if I died today
Wind chimes, water falls
I'm running in circles till I fall
I spend my nights lying awake
Wondering what would happen if I died today

So what are you waiting for
I asked you what are you waiting for
Pull the trigger and send me
To
Oblivion



Credits
Writer(s): Fang Yue Zhang
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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