letter/farewell

My head is somewhere in the clouds
Feeling so distant now you can scream it out loud
But it'll still go over my head
My mind's not present it's somewhere between life and death
Walking around like bird box
Can't see no light, too tired to fight
Counting down the seconds on the clock
Waiting for that final drop
If this song is my way of saying farewell
What do I need to say to sum up my life
I've been feeling so unwell
Got an urge to fly into that blue sky
Ohh a decade has come and gone
Half my life spent feeling so alone
I'm living on autopilot
Dealing with these voices in my head I'm in need for some silence

This a letter
This a letter
This a letter
In case I go
No need to reply cause I won't know
This a letter
This a letter
This a letter
In case I go
No need to reply cause I won't know

Always committing reckless behaviour
Hoping for an accident that'll send me to my maker
I think I need some uppers
But still the only thing I turn to is that brown liquor
I don't know what I'm so afraid of
Having trouble holding on and letting go
I'm waiting for a bus
That'll finally drive me off this crossroad
Money I'm blowing out left and right
Don't need no savings if I won't be alive
Self sabotage
I don't know why I'm still trying so hard can they see through my facade
I'm so good at hiding my pain
I got a reputation to maintain
Pretend it's comedy when it's tragedy
Until it's too hard to sustain

This a letter
This a letter
This a letter
In case I go
No need to reply cause I won't know
This a letter
This a letter
This a letter
In case I go
No need to reply cause I won't know

Sitting here writing these poetry
That no one will ever care enough to read
I wonder what they'll write in my eulogy
Will I even get one I guess we'll wait and see
Farewell
Farewell