Turmoil

As we make another attempt in these crowded halls, it's all for our own sake
We know that we'll stumble and fall, push towards recovery
Seldom hear reassuring words of integrity
I gave up on that noise a long time ago

I hear every little tick of my internal clock
Just counting down the seconds till I feel on top
For an hour or two, wish for a little more, maybe I've forgotten what I'm doing this for
So I can recapture the days
When I still had a chance at a name for myself by some circumstance
Delusions of grandeur have me riding high for the example I'll set, I should just hide

The darkest corner that I dwell, good luck and may I bid farewell.
Can not help but bring up my youth, motivation perhaps I can use.

My temperature is rising high, ready close curtain and let it ride
You all wait patiently for a sign, but progress is far and
Why can't you see what's come of me?
It's just not worth the effort 'cause all this turmoil is something I won't set aside

Wanting to turn things around
Just have no idea of how
Let us hope for the best

As they test my resolve, the coroner may call
And bring the bad news, nothing left to lose
Got a lot to learn, or let it all burn, we were better back then, let's just pretend
What I said was real, about this deal, to come out clean, and try to redeem
The hollow shell I am, I know I can, and maybe I could stay, on your wedding day

My temperature is rising high, ready close curtain and let it ride
You all wait patiently for a sign, but progress is far and
Why can't you see what's come of me
It's just not worth the effort cause all this turmoil is something I won't set aside

Won't set aside