The Light

Imagine
A white house
All concrete
Not brick
Concrete
Dreary
It looks like chalk
A broken home
Literally
There are cracks in the concrete
Inside the house is dim
You feel like you're trapped there
Like there's no escape
Like you'll die there
But every once in a while
The light
From outside seeps through the cracks
And gives you hope
That's where I was raised

These four walls feel like a padded cell
I'm all alone now, no one to ask for help
Wanna go home now, I'm mad as hell
They just got the phone call, my dad's in jail
They don't have to tell me it's a DUI
I'm just a kid, but I can read between the lines
My old man's an alcoholic, I can see the signs
They tell me this is where I have to sleep tonight
No, I wanna go home. "But you are home"
I guess this is home until tomorrow
But if tomorrow never comes, will they feel sorrow?
It's an honest question. I lost direction
I put the knife up to my wrist but upon reflection
I realized this isn't how I wanna exit
You can see the scars still if you look close
Guess it's a hard pill, but I took both

I can see the light through the cracks in the concrete
I can see the sun through this hole in the wall
In the wintertime, I hope the snow doesn't fall
'Cause we don't have heat if the stove isn't on

But I can see the light through the cracks in the concrete
I can see the sun through this hole in the wall
It gives me hope when I'm supposed to be strong
It lets me know I'll find a home and belong

These four walls feel like they're cavin' in
It doesn't help at all that they're paper thin
I can hear every word that you say to him
His voice is raised, better pray he never raised his fist
I lock my door and I play pretend
Turn the music up until it's safe again
I wrote a couple songs, tryin' to make it big
But I just got picked on for my pasty skin
I wanna tell him fuck you but I'm too young to
Even though I want to, no one to talk to
Everyone is gone and they don't know what I've gone through
But I know they went through worse than me
I get so mad that it hurts to breathe
I spent my whole life trying to search for peace
But growing up all I heard was screams
And I thought I'd get hurt if I turned the cheek, but

I can see the light through the cracks in the concrete
I can see the sun through this hole in the wall
In the wintertime, I hope the snow doesn't fall
'Cause we don't have heat if the stove isn't on

But I can see the light through the cracks in the concrete
I can see the sun through this hole in the wall
It gives me hope when I'm supposed to be strong
It lets me know I'll find a home and belong

These four walls feel like they're closin' in
Stuck between despair and hopelessness
No one seems to care or notice it
I don't think I can bare to shoulder this
Weight or cope with it. It's hard to hide denial
Home is where the heart is, by a mile
Even through the hardship, I try to smile
I've been livin' in the darkness for quite a while
But I can see the light through the cracks
I can see the lies from the past
I could see my life as it flashed
Right before my eyes as I gasped and I tried not to crash
125 on the dash. I'ma close my eyes and relax, no seat belt
I'ma fly till the wax on my wings melt
But the light through the cracks, I can see well

I can see the light through the cracks in the windshield
I can see the sky through this hole in the door
In the meantime, I hope my soul isn't torn
'Cause you can't have peace if your soul is at war

But I can see the light through the cracks in the windshield
I can see the sky through this hole in the door
It lets me know that there's supposed to be more
It helps me grow like a rose full of thorns