Baptism by Fire

I was baptized by fire
I think how all the bad times transpired
Been runnin' my whole damn life, I'm tired
I never had a chance, I had the lighter

Baby, I was baptized by fire
I think how all the bad times transpired
Been runnin' my whole damn life, I'm tired
I never had a chance, I was baptized by fire

I don't fit in, I don't belong
I tried to swim but couldn't float for long
Baptized in sin and broken bonds
But I won't give in, my hope is strong
Born afraid as a sinner with a noble cause
On the bank of the river with open palms
I prayed to convince 'em we could both be wrong
Couldn't think of the words, so I wrote this song
I know I'm off putting, not known for niceness
But I never lost footing, all I've shown is kindness
Though we're better off left to our own devices
That's little consolation to a soul in crisis
The little complications are so divisive
I don't wanna die all alone and frightened
When I close my eyelids, all cold and lifeless
Just know that I did not go in silence

Baby, I was baptized by fire
I think how all the bad times transpired
Been runnin' my whole damn life, I'm tired
I never had a chance, I was baptized by fire

Drifted through the darkness till I found the light
Said listen to your heart, kid. That's sound advice
When I was a kid, I almost drowned and died
I guess I tried my best to forget it happened
But my stepdad tried to let it happen
Sittin' back and doin' nothin' was his best reaction
A real man would've taken defensive action
Imagine how much hatred that meant he had in
His heart for me. It's hard to breathe
Three brothers, two sisters - we hardly speak
We weren't raised together. I prayed
I could change the weather. It felt like it'd rain forever
But that's just the way it went for me
Nine years was the age discrepancy
We never seemed to be on the same trajectory
They never used the same yardstick to measure me

I was baptized by fire
I think how all the bad times transpired
Been runnin' my whole damn life, I'm tired
I never had a chance, I had the lighter

Baby, I was baptized by fire
I think how all the bad times transpired
Been runnin' my whole damn life, I'm tired
I never had a chance, I was baptized by fire