Dark Lanes

Walking down this dark lane
Wondering if i'll continue down this road or ever see life
Maybe i should continue doing this throughout the night
Even though if it just doesn't feel right
But a lotta thoughts coming through my head while walking
And maybe some of them are true but i got all these stuff to say like

How did i even get like this
Why does everyone hate me
Everyone new i meet
Either wants me dead in the end
Or would rather play me
How can i be loved
If nobody here takes me seriously
How much can i take after i said enough
At least there's some people who cherish me
Or are they're just there by force
I always put myself in this remorse
How can i get real friends and try to focus on me
How can i get a girl without having to see them block me
Maybe i was never part of god's plans
I'm surprised i never took the perks or the xans
Always on the road because i need a distraction from the scene
If i had a chance to run away, i would just flee
I really need some peace
But i can't seem to have the courage to break free
I wanna know if i can finally do just me
Focusing on myself without falling on my knees

Keep lying to myself
I said that I wouldn't get better
I got a lot of issues in my life
But i know i'll just keep my hand on the cheddar
But it just never seems to be complete
I know i'm only just 18
But i felt like my whole life got taken from me
Missed out on so many opportunities
Getting bored of the same thing real quick
If i never find a way to love things, i will never stick
To anything i do, maybe i'm just a fool
Losing myself to the power and ego inside of me
Maybe its the fact that i just flew here
And i already feel sick
This lane that i'm in, really ain't it
But i'll keep on going, cause that's the only way
Into the darkness, i'll just sit back and lay
Until the light of day, i'll never probably see again