Remedy

Can you see me from the bottom
Even though the waters shallow I still feel as if it's above my neck
Does it hurt you to see me suffer
Does it hurt you at all can you feel a thing

I see father, im so sorry
I see mother, please don't worry
Because the medication didn't seem to work I couldn't get
My head straight
Dreams of overdosing, shallow breathing, no it's too late

I see the rain start to pour when I think of your name
I feel the pain when you call, say you're here with my friend
Explosions of infinity say it's all in my head
Astral projects of where I could be happy, no im not happy at all

No, don't cry out my name, no fuck you this is it
Im not who I want to be, but I know when to quit
Engrave your tales in my veins just to say you want him
Im ripping out my own flesh just to say I forget, no I won't forget

Theirs a face staring back at me
Yeah what, what does it want from me
It doesn't speak, it just follows me
Everywhere I go, yeah everywhere I turn

In the shadows always consuming
My thoughts always presuming
That maybe one day I will just take a step
And just learn to breathe

So tell me does get better than this
I don't even know, you don't even know so why do I ask
Maybe cus im holding on by a thread
And secretly im hoping it gives

So then you can just watch me fall
Until I hit the water and let the ocean sky just consume me