Torn

Hey there my friend. How have you been
This year's been kinda weird
The start was nice. Would do it again twice
But now, I wish you were here
Cause I see you in my dreams
But tonight I can't sleep
I know it's late. It's already three
But, I miss waking up at dawn & seeing the dew on the lawn
I've realized since we've been gone

That this year we went through the good and the bad
Looking back I feel both happy and mad
Cause I learned this year that life's not as we're told
The end wasn't how it's supposed to be
But there were so many great memories
So now, I'm split and torn

On days that I'd work, I escaped my life
And had a purpose to strive
On days in the pit, I played the drum kit
And Pokémon with my friend in the cockpit
And there was hoco. 'Twas quite the show
It feels so long ago
I wish I was dancin', but now just askin'
How long will this be lastin'

This year we went through the good and the bad
Looking back I feel both happy and mad
Cause I learned this year that life's not as we're told
The end wasn't how it's supposed to be
But there were so many great memories
So now, I'm split and torn

Cause I remember when
Me and the homies went sledding in a snowstorm
And danced in the parking lot after we performed
For pep band, trip rehearsal, it was such a blast
But everything started to pile up fast
When I lost a teacher who was my hero
She held me in her arms and said it was ok to cry
But without you here, I'm asking why

Why didn't I suggest that idea
Why didn't I tell her how I feel
I guess, for now, I'm out of time
I hope this gets better and my mind'll be clear
And I'm hopin' the right options will appear
But I hope you respond tonight
Cause I wish you were here
But despite all the crap and all of the tears
Should I still give a cheer
To my Junior Year