Conversations With Myself

All this anger got me danger like major ranger
Cuttin me up slow like a razor with a hot laser
What doesnt kill meee only makes me crazier
I got these all these eyedeas and thats what fuels the lyrical surge
Scratch an itch quick just to end the fuckin urge
I got all these demons inside and thats what i aim to purge
Sync up the personas and call it a corporate merge
But then i unravel into infinity caused by my mental scourge
I suffer from an excess of anxiety
Depression dissociation and they all cry to me

Youre hopeless and weak and not a single person loves you
Youre just dragging them down slow the negativity of toxic glue

Shut the fuck up i dont wanna hear that shit
Why cus you might just believe it a little bit
Look i know im not perfect but im trying to be better
Oh really you think youll succeed nope nahah never

Each of these masks i wear is my real face
In a cowl and a cape im the bats not bruce wayne

Okay mr vigilante put the mask on and pack your bags with ease
Maybe i should leave

Then fucking do it already please
Pull the blade out of your back pocket and slit your wrists quick
Actually fuck that slit your esophagus to help ensure that shit
Life is bleak and your only buying time till the inevitable
Dont kid yourself into thinking itll get better like incredible

I know your trying to manipulate me with my darker side
But you forget i battled you before and cured the storm inside

You think that but i was actually chillin the back
Hidden deep within your subconscious plottin out the trap

Battle of the inner minds until only one prevails
A dead man will tell a tale of no tales

Yeah well see whos living after i stuff you in my private jail
Darkest prison is buried in my mind and its where youll find hell

Your a high functioning psychopath that tries to tame the beast
A rabid dog tortured slowly and ready to be unleashed
So before you detonate like a trigger to a bomb
You might as well spare a few and say so long

Maybe if i was gone theyd finally notice me
No wait i didn't mean that quit trying bait me
I just need an escape please away from myself geeze
And its sad cus deep down ive always been my worst enemy

You know why the scariest thing you see in the mirror is your own eyes
Dont try suppress or bury these feelings with a bunch of lies
I told you twice im not the enemy ill end your suffering
Take these sleeping pills and youll just fall into a little dream

I cant cus i got mad plans to make infinite cream
So i can fix my families life and start liven up my dream

I promise you the glimmer of hope aint what it seems

But how can you be sure that i should just spring
Into the ethereal plane and let my body rot and decay
Do i just jump and dive in should i first pray

Theres no afterlife so dont worry bout that shit
Tell me first will they be better off if i disappear like a blip
Let me flip this script if you dont youll be the one to ruin them

Alright hand me some paper and pass me a pen
Ima write these last thoughts down before i descend
Into infinite darkness or maybe even nothingness

Sometimes i feel like nobody gets me
Sometimes i feel like nobody believes in me
I just feel like im drowning all alone
Trapped in my mind and talking to these ghosts
Conversations with myself oh no
I just need ya to please let me go
I just wanna die dont wanna live no more
But ill wake up tomorrow and do it again fasho
Conversations with myself oh no
I just need ya to please let me go
I just wanna die dont wanna live no more
But ill wake up tomorrow and do it again fasho
Conversations with myself oh no
I just need ya to please let me go
I just wanna die dont wanna live no more
But ill wake up tomorrow and do it again fasho