Pain

I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vain
Before all the pain, comes back again

Now I'm dealing with my heart
I couldn't feel the same
Not feeling so conceited
I'm the one to take the blame
I don't want to, but I stress
My anxiety's a mess
I want to end it all
But it's a permanent attempt
I know my life is meant to be better than this
Cause if it isn't
Then why'd it start here to begin with
I feel it, it's switching my life's point of view
Things will get better, i'll make it the truth
Sometimes its harder cause we're falling back
Falling deeper in my head
And then the demons attack
And Now the pressure is on
I dont got time to relax
But if we had another moment
I don't want it to pass
But everything that's good
Will always come to end
I see it all the time
It's gon' be there to defend
So imma pray to God
That gon' let me ascend
Cause darkness is not someone
I would call a friend

I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vain
Before all the pain, comes back again

Feel like I'm drowning
In a world that likes to fake it
God if you had a different plan for me
Then I won't debate it
But can you at least
Show me all the things I'm near?
Cause I'm lost, and from here
Your voice is kinda hard to hear
Can you just shout it out
Or even point me to
The place I need to go
As long as it's for you
Cause life has been kicking me,
While I'm on the ground
And this pain it hurts so much
That it's hard to make a sound
I want to scream so loud
But my voice is staying silent
I've been trying to play nice
But this world is always violent
I keep trying to gain some ground
Cause I'm always trying to fight it
But How much more can I take
When there's nothing left to fight with
Despite this
How much longer can I last
The way emotions got me feeling
Makes it different from my past
The quicker I feel weak
The faster they attack
In society it's even dangerous
Just to get attached

I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vain
Before all the pain, comes back again

Im stuck in a storm
I feel it in waves
Im trying my best
To wish it away
I made a habit
Im stuck in a phase
I fight to get out
Gonna make it okay
I'm sick and I'm tired of pain
Missing the days of feeling okay
Having the issue inside of my brain
But am I deserving of all of the pain
Feeling my life is posioned
But im gonna call it a novacane
Wish i was paralyzed
So I wouldnt be feeling a thing
All overwhelming the feeling of selling
My soul to the demon
I feel like im nothing
I know that im something
A making of coming
When I didnt really have nothing
I wanted a change
I just gotta let it out
Im gonna get me through it
Blocking out the ones who say I wont
I bet ill prove it
This is gonna be the dream for life
I gotta do it
So if im wrong then you got it
Hope youre happy viewing
All my heart and all my tears
Getting broke and ruined
Its all I wanted, all I loved
The only passion I was pursuing
The only dream ive ever had
So I hope youre really happy
If my life gets split in half

I need the answer, to all the pain
Before all the shame, comes back again
Meeting my maker, waited in vain
Before all the pain, comes back again