Lying Awake

As I stay awake
Laying in my bed
Can you tell that I'm
Over thinking
Have a million thoughts
Stuck inside my head
That just won't descend
Feel like I'm sinking

Hey
Wait a minute I'm here
I'm just trying to figure out all of my fears
And I'm staying away I'm making it clear
That I'm doing a trick
And I will disappear
I've never been the one to blend in
I'm the kinda person that people keep around
To have comparisons
A pair of sims
They're mocking me again
I wish that I was forgetting it all
But I guess I can't
Society
It seem to never change
And the way that humans act
Will always stay the same
Cause nobody ever gets involved
When you're going through pain
And All these kind of issues
Are what are inside of my brain
It's water under the bridge
That won't flow
Pressure in on a cave
That won't hold
Try to right all the wrongs
They don't know
Guess it's left for the stories
Of the untold

As I stay awake
Laying in my bed
Can you tell that I'm
Over thinking
Have a million thoughts
Stuck inside my head
That just won't descend
Feel like I'm sinking

Trapped in a motion to believe
That I use my emotions to think
Use my heart, not my mind
Let it sink Let it sink
Too much passion to grasp
It's the wisdom I lack
But I'm fine in the back
A maniacal laugh
Cause the pain is a trap
My Depression is back
With the punch that it packs
I can never relax
Do I overreact
Need a pat on the back
Will it cut me some slack
Letting go of the past
To defend or attack
Cause I'm broke and I'm cracked
It's one hell of a track
To find a way back
Having faith sometime it feels so hopeless
That doesn't mean that i've given up hoping
That I can find where I'm meant to be
Cause my music in life is really only meant for me