today, yesterday

I traced it back
Redid my footsteps
And met my time
With both its shoes untied

I found my pain
And let it rain
On my skin
And wash the wounds within

I was too close to it to ever know
What was really going on below
The solitude, the agony, the hate
I learned it'd stay the same

But now I know the questions never go away
I'll still doubt myself everyday
Sometimes I feel just like my heart could stop
I'll hate my feelings and my face
Some tears will still make me feel ashamed
The lingering that all my fears have brought
But today
I'm learning how to carry it better than yesterday

I didn't know
I had so much in me
Or that I'd grow
As time flows
It gets closer

Sometimes I breath the thoughts away
I'll learn to deal with my self hate
The love in me will not let my heart stop
I'll fight for what withholds my name
The tears won't make me go insane
Even with the lingering they've brought
'Cause today
I'm learning I can carry it better than yesterday

Aah
Aah
Aah

Aah
Aah
Aah