Torn - 2021 Remastered version

I live as Lauron on a piece of paper
But there is no Lauron living inside of me

I live as Lauron on a piece of paper
But there is no Lauron living inside of me

I live as Lauron on a piece of paper
But there is no Lauron living inside of me

I live as Lauron on a piece of paper
But there is no Lauron living inside of me

I live as Lauron on a piece of paper
But despite that, I'm still folded up by your hands
My throat itches by telling you how I feel
What's wrong with my words that you can't simply understand
Like origami, you write my own story
But what I aspire
Is actuality
But the rain washes my fingerprints away
With the rain, my identity too goes away

You always tell me how I should feel
Pointless pain proves itself ever so profoundly
Profoundly
Profoundly

Don't tell me how I should ever feel
Pointless pain proves itself profoundly
Profoundly
Profoundly
And I'm torn

Let the rain come and wash me away
And take me to a place where I can finally say
My life is my own
And see my fingerprints again
Cause living this other life was more than a sin
Let my tears fall heavy with all my burdens
Let my tears fall to reveal a better me
A better me who doesn't have agony
A better me to see their reflection clearly
To know my true self
One that I've never known
Oh my sweet chariot come down to carry me home
Bring peace to this anxious, hurt, dark soul
My heart hurts
My brain hurts
I feel so torn
But if I can know myself
This pain will all be worth it
How much longer will I have to suffer through it

You knew I was suffering
But you still let me suffer
To uphold your pride
Is the downfall of another
What about my pain made you want to see it more
Don't see me as being weak
Someone being an open door
You'd seen a weakness
And used it for your own glory
You used a selfish game
To erase my sole story
Now I live with that made for me
Put me in scary territory
Can't say you care for me
Don't change your hypocrisy

If I'm going to find myself
It'll be on my own terms
Who I am as a person
Sit back and watch
I'm sure you'll learn
When I look at you
Love now is filled with hurt
You constantly destroy and manipulate me with your fake words
A true love that died
Away with your bruised lies
A wolf in sheep clothing
Such a sad disguise
Wish to put this all behind me
But you keep on tugging at me
You keep on lying to me
Stop saying you even care for me

I live as Lauron on a piece of paper
But there is no Lauron living inside of me
One day I'll finally be reunited
With my own self-identity
And that day will be so glorious
That day will all be for me
When I can finally say that there's a Lauron
A Lauron living inside of me
To know my true self
One that I've never known
A self other than what the world wants of me
Burdens lifted off my heavy drooped shoulder
A deep breath so I can finally breathe
Before the world got a hold of me
To know the me when I was born
I patiently await the day where I can say I'm free
Chains gone
No longer torn