Lauron's Room
I'm a captive to myself, my thoughts keep me captive
I run, but my thoughts are wherever I turn
I need to hide, I need to hide from myself
I'm scared of who I really am, cause there's a monster inside
I tried to rid myself of this shadow
But the monster won't come outside
I always tell myself stop being a coward
I've suffered long enough
I rip myself away, but the monster hides deeper inside
I try to reach inside, but the monster hides deeper inside
Pull the good and ugly out, the monster hides deeper inside
Cry while pulling myself apart, the monster hides deeper inside
Tried to pray it away, I felt miserable
I tried to be a saint, I felt miserable
I tried my own way, I felt miserable
To soften the pain, I felt miserable
So I hid away, hid away, in Lauron's room
But I could never stay, never stay, in Lauron's Room
I needed to heal my soul, heal my soul, in Lauron's room
But I just felt cold, felt cold, in Lauron's room
To all those I tried to love, I wanna say sorry
I couldn't be upfront with myself then, you didn't deserve me
To the one in particular, I'll still always be there for you
I hope you can forgive me though when I wasn't even there for you
Most of my life, I couldn't be truthful in front of mirrors
The truth was there, staring at me, couldn't have been clearer
But it was wrong to deviate in that direction
So I stayed straight, was obedient, followed instructions
It's a shame when they think they know what's good for you
They don't feel your heartbeat when you see the one you love
I don't need you telling me what's right or wrong
Just promise me it won't change how you look at me
I look back on my life and realize I've never felt normal
Felt like an alien to those who were close to me
More now than ever that label haunts me deeply
I feel now I have to live this life discreetly
Live life discreetly
Live life discreetly
To live this way this pure agony
Live life discreetly
Live life discreetly
Live life discreetly
So I hid away, hid away, in Lauron's room
But I could never stay, never stay, in Lauron's Room
I needed to heal my soul, heal my soul, in Lauron's room
But I just felt cold, felt cold, in Lauron's room
I run, but my thoughts are wherever I turn
I need to hide, I need to hide from myself
I'm scared of who I really am, cause there's a monster inside
I tried to rid myself of this shadow
But the monster won't come outside
I always tell myself stop being a coward
I've suffered long enough
I rip myself away, but the monster hides deeper inside
I try to reach inside, but the monster hides deeper inside
Pull the good and ugly out, the monster hides deeper inside
Cry while pulling myself apart, the monster hides deeper inside
Tried to pray it away, I felt miserable
I tried to be a saint, I felt miserable
I tried my own way, I felt miserable
To soften the pain, I felt miserable
So I hid away, hid away, in Lauron's room
But I could never stay, never stay, in Lauron's Room
I needed to heal my soul, heal my soul, in Lauron's room
But I just felt cold, felt cold, in Lauron's room
To all those I tried to love, I wanna say sorry
I couldn't be upfront with myself then, you didn't deserve me
To the one in particular, I'll still always be there for you
I hope you can forgive me though when I wasn't even there for you
Most of my life, I couldn't be truthful in front of mirrors
The truth was there, staring at me, couldn't have been clearer
But it was wrong to deviate in that direction
So I stayed straight, was obedient, followed instructions
It's a shame when they think they know what's good for you
They don't feel your heartbeat when you see the one you love
I don't need you telling me what's right or wrong
Just promise me it won't change how you look at me
I look back on my life and realize I've never felt normal
Felt like an alien to those who were close to me
More now than ever that label haunts me deeply
I feel now I have to live this life discreetly
Live life discreetly
Live life discreetly
To live this way this pure agony
Live life discreetly
Live life discreetly
Live life discreetly
So I hid away, hid away, in Lauron's room
But I could never stay, never stay, in Lauron's Room
I needed to heal my soul, heal my soul, in Lauron's room
But I just felt cold, felt cold, in Lauron's room
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Writer(s): Lauron Smith
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