Thoughts

Uh love is absent in my planet
Hate and heartbreak dominate
I never planned it
Alcohol a few razor blades and a bowl of Xanax
Drink that shit cut my wrist understand it
Satanic? I panic under pressure
You told me you had a man something I couldn't understand
But talking to you once and never again wasn't in my plans
My brain was like a maze
Lost in thoughts give me another chance too embarrassed to ask
Is it wrong?
When I talk about my private feelings on a song
Knowing that you might be listening or holding on
Too much thinking got me drinking
Im kinda trippin and Fallin victim to all my childhood demons a cursed semen?
Broken promises got me feeling suicidal
When it comes to accepting love I realised I am my biggest rival
I want to tell you that I love you but my pride is on the line
Or is it the fact I'm afraid you might not say it back

I wanna tell you how I feel is what I'm feeling real?
I thought about it
Pain pills my favourite meal
They numb the way I fell
You and I it's on my motherfuckin mind like all the time
(You and I)
On my mind all the time

See her mind always captivates my mind
Brown eyes thick thighs and caramel skin
To lust I know it's a sin
So before I die baptize me in a pool full of dry gin or black label
I'm sorry if I sound a bit unstable
Rejection infatuated my mind with thoughts of suicide
So much pain in my brain
Got me contemplating of jumping in front of an on coming train
I'll probably die in my sleep and wake up in a coffin
Coughing spiders my deepest desire is to see you burn in the eternal fire
I wonder why I'll pop my eyes out and chop off my ears
Before I see or hear you cry
Especially if it's caused by I
It's not a lie when I say I'm itching to die it's how I feel inside
I wanna tell you that I love but my pride is on the line
Or is it the fact I'm afraid you might not say it back

I wanna tell you how I feel is what I'm feeling real?
I thought about it
Pain pills my favourite meal
They numb the way I fell
You and I it's on my motherfuckin mind like all the time
(You and I)
On my mind all the time



Credits
Writer(s): Mandilakhe Mfihlo
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