Sobriety

Hey... I know you're probably in the studio or something but
I know I've been distant lately, I hope you don't hate me for this
But I have to tell you what's going on with me
Just know that I love you

How am I going to say this
Seems like every single night I sit up toss & then turn
Feelin' guilty for everything I've done I'm not what you deserve
To tell you the truth... I know exactly what you are, you're amazing & all
But lately something's been off, 3 glasses of wine...& I still can't figure what's wrong
'Till I take 2 more lines then I'm strung out & gone
I know we have our issues... like the distance... can't help it
So I hide behind the pain... feeling numb & I'm helpless
While you're in the studio I'm lost in lines of blow
'Till I sit & I cry... while I'm here all alone
You're supposed to be here with me... inside of my home
There's no one to sip with me... I'm out here on my own, like
I've been up late drinkin' and
I've been overthinking now
I'm finally seein' that
I'm sittin' here sinking in truth

Do you love me?, cuz I've been sippin' & trippin' now
Do you love me?, cuz I've sniffin' feelin' different
Do you want me?, cuz being with you I ain't really feelin' nothing
Meanwhile I'm trying to feel something from you
Do you love me?, cuz I've been sippin' & trippin' now
Do you love me?, cuz I've sniffin' feelin' different
Do you want me?, cuz being with you I ain't really feelin' nothing
Meanwhile I'm trying to feel something from you

It's... 2 am I'm still up so I sti & I wallow
I'm just trying to feel something so I finish this bottle
Smoke away my problems... makes my pride hard to swallow
Drunk dialing your line so I hope on your facetime
Just to have you ask... what's your problem this time
I swear to God that I'm tryin'...and you know I hate lying
But I'm sick of this cycle... I'm looking for a way out
I don't know how to tell you this without you having your doubts
But I hope you find peace and I hope you figure it out
Our connection was so strong... so I left you this message
Please don't take too long... to listen and reply, cuz I'm dying inside
Heads clouded this whole month from all this cryin', like
I've been up late drinkin' and
I've been overthinking now
I'm finally seein' that
I'm sittin' here sinking in truth

Do you love me?, cuz I've been sippin' & trippin' now
Do you love me?, cuz I've sniffin' feelin' different
Do you want me?, cuz being with you I ain't really feelin' nothing
Meanwhile I'm trying to feel something from you
Do you love me?, cuz I've been sippin' & trippin' now
Do you love me?, cuz I've sniffin' feelin' different
Do you want me?, cuz being with you I ain't really feelin' nothing
Meanwhile I'm trying to feel something from you

I'm so gone they say, looking for my escape
Please call me back tonight, not trying to put up a fight
It seems to be the pain, that I'm tryin' to hide on my face
Can't stand these thoughts it's like, I wonder if you still love me no lie



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Writer(s): Joshua Cruz
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