The Art of Detachment

I'm tryin' to... I'm tryin' to
I'm tryin' to... find my out of this darkness
It's like I'm lost & gone in the process
But... something has to change before I lose my soul
Need my guardian angel now... tell me where did they go
Reflecting in my solitude... I need you so
To tell you all my secrets & to hold you close
Like I'm tired of being in this dark mood
Too far gone I don't know what to do soon, just wanna be alone
So... I don't wanna come out my room, please leave it at the doorway
I know I need your company... can't get up out my own way
Maybe I will soon... or maybe I will one day
I've been blaming what I know, on everyone that I ghost
If they don't understand or don't know
Prefer they leave with the door closed, & I have no patience
For love that's wasted, or time that's taken, so I'm mistaken

It's like I want you right here... right here next to me
But I just wanna be alone... would you please just let me be
& I don't know... I feel alone, I'm so alone, no no... no
& it's like... like no one understands me... you know?

I'm in the dark now with... no company
No... light in sight if... I could only see
No... energy left I don't even care to eat
Left my phone on silent but they keep on callin' me
All the days I have detached from everyone
& I know this is an issue only to some
As if it's never been a struggle when I run
Will you please help me?, I know this ain't healthy
& as so many come & go, it's no wonder I don't know
Left confused & all alone, cuz I hurt those that are close
Am I wrong? Yes, But I'm just being honest, with all my flaws
I've been blaming what I know, on everyone that I ghost
If they don't understand or don't know
Prefer they leave with the door closed, & I have no patience
For love that's wasted, or time that's taken, so I'm mistaken

It's like I want you right here... right here next to me
But I just wanna be alone... would you please just let me be
& I don't know... I feel alone, I'm so alone, no no... no
& it's like... like no one understands me... you know?

I got these 4 walls around me conversating everyday
Talkin' to myself in my room all alone with my mistakes
Trying to think outside my mind or somehow find a way
I need a change or escape a way out of this dark place
No no... I'm so cold... I feel alone... alone...
You know and it's like... after a while... you get so used to being alone
It's like... I may start to like this... please help me get out of this, out of my own way
Of pushing you away... pushing everyone away... please?



Credits
Writer(s): Joshua Cruz
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