Treading Water

Asking myself who I am
When and where should I go
Why do I care and what does it matter
How can I live in this world

Is any of this mine
I'm searching in my mind
And I find what they couldn't see
'Cuz I'm lost
I tried so hard to be what they wanted to see in me
And I'm the one paying the cost
Been living every day just tryna to make it
I keep struggling 'cuz they say this world is mine
But it still feels so empty yet still smothering
And I feel it corrupting me inside
From within

Living this way is not really helping me
But I just can't seem to move on
I need to make a change that must come from inside
And I gotta try to swim up from this dark
They keep telling me that this is what life is all about
But they can't comprehend what it's like
They all living up there floating on above
While I'm down here sinking from my spark
Away from the light

Slip away
And then you fade
Feeling so
Far away

Feeling I've been tossed off into the sea
Should I drown or should I keep on with this struggling
Tryna find where these thoughts might lead me
But I can't help from all of this malfunctioning

Every time I try
It's something inside
Blocking my way
Leaving me to decide
If this is my fate
All I seem to do is try
Never thought that I could rise
But since I'm all alone
I'll have to teach myself how to fly

Living this way is not really helping me
But I just can't seem to move on
I need to make a change that must come from inside
And I gotta try to swim up from this dark
They keep telling me that this is what life is all about
But they can't comprehend what it's like
They all living up there floating on above
While I'm down here sinking from my spark
Away from the light

Looking deep inside
And now I find
A new guide
With no goodbye
I take control of my life
Feeling like my life is not what it seems
So I guess I'll make the most
Take these reins and live this life like a dream
Do my best to create a new beginning
I don't know if it's in me
But I'll keep on swimming
Once I find the land and I'm laying in the sand
And maybe then I can breathe again
There is nothing left to see
I'll do all I can to be free
All I can to be me
So I'll stop pretending to know
What makes this all worth living
I'll just swim until my body's done being me

Living this way is not really helping me
But I just can't seem to move on
I need to make a change that must come from inside
And I gotta try to swim up from this dark
They keep telling me that this is what life is all about
But they can't comprehend what it's like
They all living up there floating on above
While I'm down here sinking from my spark
Away from the light
Living this way is not really helping me
But I just can't seem to move on
I need to make a change that must come from inside
And I gotta try to swim up from this dark
They keep telling me that this is what life is all about
But they can't comprehend what it's like
They all living up there floating on above
While I'm down here sinking from my spark
Away from the light

So just breathe
And just be
Live this dream
Wait and see