The First Page

I'm alone, with the walls, and my pain
Feel alone, feelin' lost, feel insane

I tried to let go, now everyone will know
I tried to let go, of everything I know
Every time I see my eyes
Staring back on into mine
I can see the pain inside so bright it blinds me
Every time you hear my song
Every time you sing along
I'll remind you that you're strong, I know you with me

I remember it so clearly
Hold the memories so dearly
Last breath and no one going to hear me
I saw death and he told me, don't fear me
Been mixing up the truth in lies
Solving problems with suicide
Like that'll help
Even though I never even ask for help
Mainly cuz I'm feeling like I shouldn't even need it
Got a mom who wrote a book 'bout health but wouldn't even read it
Got abundance all around me but I couldn't even see it
Now I'm fucking overdosing while I'm looking for a reason
Maybe trauma, maybe pain
I don't know, on the low, I'm insane
It's the way that I show what I know with my brain
Every day, everyday
Cutting red slits with a mother fucking blade
Then I came back
Hit rock bottom but I changed that
All day moving forward like a train track
All the pain that I gave I would take back
Now I'm living my dreams and it ain't bad
All I'm really trynna say's that I did it
So why can't you
The answer is you can
It's the truth

I tried to let go, now everyone will know
I tried to let go, of everything I know
Every time I see my eyes
Staring back on into mine
I can see the pain inside so bright it blinds me
Every time you hear my song
Every time you sing along
I'll remind you that you're strong, I know you with me