Things That You Hate

I'm caught in between everything that I am
I can't look away only you understand
I try to deny but will crash in the end
Will crash in the end
Crash in the end
You beg me to go
And then beg me to stay
'Cause nobody else got you feeling this way
Distracting yourself from the things that you hate
The things that you hate
Things that you hate

All I ever wanted
Was a place that I go
Live a life of peace
In a place with no foes
But reality
Is that I keep tippy toes
Pistol in my pocket
That's the way that I roll
Do you understand
Why I can't seem to grow
Things I got to do
Just to get to the dough
Live a life of sin
But you already know
Hear the devil knocking
So don't answer the door
'Cause it's really me
And I'm holding the chrome
Semi automatic
'Cause I'm broken and cold
People after me
From a life that is old
Who the fuck am I
To decide how to go
Life is what you make it
So go ahead and explode
Look into my eyes
When you making them close
I just wanna see
Who was so brave and bold
I just wanna see
It's a thing I must know
'Cause I feel it deep inside
Sometimes I just wanna die
Will it even justify
All the things that I hide
That I choose not to write
'Cause I'm living in shame
From the pain that I gave
To the people that came
To my life while I craved
A filthy life of sin
And I lived it in vain
I tried to make a change
But everyday that I wake
I am feeling the same
All the pain deep inside
It's the rain in my mind
And the clouds full of doubt
That are keeping me blind
Dear God do you listen?
'Cause I cry for your help
But you're giving me hell
Like I'm trapped in a cell
And I'm destined to fail

I'm caught in between everything that I am
I can't look away only you understand
I try to deny but will crash in the end
Will crash in the end
Crash in the end
You beg me to go
And then beg me to stay
'Cause nobody else got you feeling this way
Distracting yourself from the things that you hate
The things that you hate
Things that you hate

Let me make some brains blow
But I do it on the down low
Body bag a motherfucker
But don't let nobody know
That's the thoughts in my mind
Got me feeling so blind
Got me gripping the 9
From a life that I lived
In the past that I hide
In a past that I fight
These are demons inside
They're controlling my mind
I am calling for you
But I get no reply
I am feeling so low
You expect me to grow
But the only thing I have
Is the gun in my hand
Got my finger on the trigger
But you don't understand
I'm a man that is lost
Trying to figure the cost
I am playing to win
But every play is a loss
So I sit and reminisce
To a time that is bliss
To a time that I miss
Living life as a kid
When I didn't give a shit
All I ever really did
Was enjoy everything
I'm a man on a mission
Tell me, god, do you listen
As I sit reminiscing
Deep inside I am missing
A connection with you
When I felt bulletproof
When I knew what to do
But now all that remains
Is the pain in my brain
Like I'm trapped in a cage
And I can't turn the page
To the next fucking stage
Of my life
'Cause I don't wanna be
Trapped in the prison of my mind
In a place so cold
Where I just grow old in years
And I'm just collecting tears
Held back by my own fears

I'm caught in between everything that I am
I can't look away only you understand
I try to deny but will crash in the end
Will crash in the end
Crash in the end
You beg me to go
And then beg me to stay
'Cause nobody else got you feeling this way
Distracting yourself from the things that you hate
The things that you hate
Things that you hate