Suffering Makes Great Art

I'm that guy in the movie who never really
Grew up and kept pursuing his dream
Even when every one else lost interest
You got someone like that in your life?
You know what?
Show them some respect
Because they're probably going through
Alot right now

If you have a therapist
Who doesn't have a preference
Of how far gone their client is
Then could you give them my digits?

I found my dream when I was two
Earning the respect of everyone I knew
Never said I was successful
But it really put my mental health
To the test, though

Do I have a therapist?
Not until I get rich
From whatever it is that I make next
But God knows I should take a rest

Do I have a therapist?
Not until I get rich
From whatever it is that I make next
But got me feeling hella stressed
Put this pressure on myself
Can't slow down and I need help

I got pressure to perform
Not sure where this came from
I really hate looking at porn
Really creates some unrealistic expectations
Hate being horny, I can't take this

Hope this feeling lasts forever
Ever since the day that I met her
I lost my desire for lust
Found a new way to bust
A move to earn her trust

She meets my expectations though
Actually exceeds them, although
Hope she plans to wait around
'Cause from here I can only go down

I got pressure to perform
But I dont mean sexually
But more on a social level, see
Don't got worries in the bedroom
'Cause it's just me

Caffeine is a stimulant that helps me see
All the artistry inside my head that I'm afraid
To acknowledge when I'm sleepy
Supposedly it's the same story with weed
Guess it's only okay to abuse drugs if it's coffee

Is any of this making any sense?
Wrote most of it when I was one
Day away from going crazy
At least I'm not subject to being lazy
If I keep this up I might convince
Somebody to pay me
At the very least I could
Sustain myself taking amazing
Photos of cute dogs and kids
Maybe that's the way that I'll get rich

How can anybody create art when happy
When I'm there the last thing I want to do
Is subject myself to another lengthy process
Only happens when my mind is a mess

They say suffering is when we've lost control
But that sounds like my whole life
So how am I supposed to
Let that shit go?

And if I could just love you for today
I think that would be more than okay
No matter how much it may break my heart
Whatever it takes to make another piece of art