So Insane, Pt. IV

I've tried
I've tried to change
Oh I
I've made, mistakes
I'm so Insane, Insane
So

So insane I'm always stuck thinking bout the past
Why they call me karma huh thought you'd never ask
You ever get so lonely you go and talk into the mirror
Talked to nothing it responded the voices coming nearer
Didn't know loneliness till I was talking to myself
Shits the reason always rap about my mental health
I'm using you as a stand in, a stand in for me
I'm someone you can't abandon I'm in your head on repeat
So replay me back like a lyric you couldn't catch
Share your energy with me and I guarantee I can match
I've been walking down this path forever never looking back
I've been anxious since forever never nervous about my stacks
But I'm always nervous about my spot and the places where I'm at
So I grabbed the world by my palms my futures in my hands
I got people in my DMs who have never made a track
But they somehow turn to experts writing me essays how to rap
But most of the complaints come from the back of my head
Intrusive thoughts telling me that I'm better off dead
Huh, I wonder if they're right
Is this as good as it gets making sandwiches every night
This minimum wage is contagious on the fucking mind
I can't keep living if living is a grind
Is living even living if I don't feel alive
If this lines my final line what have I done with my time

I've tried
I've tried to change
Oh I
I've made, mistakes
I'm so Insane, Insane
So

I hope when I pass yall don't reflect upon my past
Cuz life wasn't shit, I saved my best for last
Tried to live a life but drugs and liquor made it fucking worse
Tried to numb the pain with bars but yall know how that works
And even if I'm gone my chain will keep me gold
Spirit ever gone, lyrics keeps me whole
Remember long ago, said imma make an impact
After all this time bro, I guess I'm still intact
Been through hell and back man I've been through this marathon
Searching for a smile or a heart I'm raps vagabond
Searching for a king or a castle I'll fucking trample on
Feeling for a moment of clout I'll fucking grapple on
I keep a balance between humble and hunger
Do I wanna be 6 feet over or under
This clarity transitioning to mental thunder
Yall are praying for peace while I'm hoping for sunder
But fuck my soul is so far from fucking mending
Living with a smile but I fucking hate pretending
Personality makes everything just seem funny
It's all a joke even as my hands turn bloody
Gotta give 'em something that's gonna show y'all longevity
Gotta give 'em something for nothing before y'all bury me
Then put in nothing and hope I make it barely
Staring at nothing hoping these walls give me clarity

I've tried
I've tried to change
Oh I
I've made, mistakes
I'm so Insane, Insane
So



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Writer(s): Devon Nelson
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