Aint Been the Same

Ay
Look

I know I changed
I know I ain't been the same
But I been grindin for my life
This shit been keepin me sane
So I just pray That I'm gone make it
And y'all hear what I say
Cuz all these problems I been facin
Wasn't for nothing no way

Plus I been slippin and fallin
Man I'm just fighting for my life
And now I look at my brotha
My god I know he losin sight
I been so damn committed
I really turned this to my life
But now I'm picking up pieces
And finding more every time I write

And these skeletons in my closet
Got me steppin over bones
I been tryna do my best
Cuz my heart heavy I might fold
Devil on my conscience
And I know he want my soul
He must not know me
I ain't goin out like them
Just for the gold

I don't know what you been told
But i been tryna reach my goals
And I'm just tryna bring my brothas with me
They won't ever fold
With my brothers and my family
I could take on any load
I Been in drive for so damn long
Don't think I could get off the road

I remember steppin on stage
For the very first time
I did a sermon at my church
I think around the age of nine
That's when I knew I had a gift
And now I put it into rhymes
Sams vision
With More demons
But I know I'm finna shine
I'm like

On the road to fame
But I been dealing with my pain
And I been tryna make a name
Thats why I stay up in my lane
Constant battles with my demons
Make it hard for to explain
Everything im goin through
I Can't just get it off my brain

I needa rest
Cuz I been tryna be the best
Got lost in my ways
And now I'm tryna find success
While my demons weighin on me
Gettin heavy in my chest
Thats when you find out u a winner
Keep on pushing through the mess

I know I changed
I know I ain't been the same
But I been grindin for my life
This shit been keepin me sane
So I just pray That I'm gone make it
And they hear what I say
Cuz all these problems I been facin
Wasn't for nothing no way

Fuck fighting off my demons
If I can't beat em
Im gone join em
But trust me I ain't evil
I been praying to avoid them
Just can't seem to catch a break
Can't make no memories or enjoy em
I'm jus always lookin back
On when I wasn't disappointed

That's why I been out the way
While making moves
I love this fast life
It keeps me far away from
All them bitches who don't act right

And I been out here
Tryna make a name for myself
I'm all in
So i won't let nobody put me on the shelf
Fuck the riches I want wealth
I need that title and that belt
Fesl like a fighter in the ring
But really fighting with myself
And all these demons on me
Might just be with me to the death
Tell everybody that I tried
But i think I got nun left

So this the one that finna go before the last letter
I know this shit cuts deep
but makes the pain better
I hope this hits the one who needed it most
And holds you down on rainy days
So you can keep this shit close
Don't ever give up on the dream
Because your life's in your hands
So when you get it out the mud
And see it all go to plan
Keep manifesting all your goals
And pray that God gives a hand
Cuz if I didn't take a chance on me man
I would be damned