Letter (Remixed and Remastered)

I'm trying to fix my past
With pieces that can't ever last
Against the sands of time
When's this all gonna be mine?
I'll fight the help you give
It's not free for how I live
It's a chain that I'll always aim to break
So don't look me in the face
Because I'm so afraid that
You will suddenly understand
That I'm not the man you think I am
So don't make a plan
You can't save me
I mean maybe
There's always the possibility
You can save me
From the prison that I built for me
But don't bet on it
Some days I'm just too selfish
To see the people that I hurt
And the guilt in me will wait to burn
Until I feel again
I'm so sorry friend
I should call and ask for help
But I won't because I'm always struggling
With the doubt that I have
That this could be God's plan
Is it really God's plan
For me to be able to stand
Against the things that bring me down
And let them be something that I can live without?
I can't live without

I'm always trying to fly away
From problems I had yesterday
A never ending struggle
Of climbing out of the rubble
Clipped my wings and bought 'em
A casket of empty bottles
I hope one day I'll get better
But for now I'll write this letter

Tell me who hurt you mother
That let you hurt my sister, brother?
Will I do the same when my time comes?
Will I even meet someone
Who can know me at my worst
And not run if I don't first?
If I don't first
If I don't first
Find a way to mess it up
I don't think I can be enough
If it's all the same to you
I'll walk away before you do
Let's rewind
You give me time
I promise you that I will find
A way to bring us back to God
I hope I'm not a fraud
Tell me now God, am I saved?
Or will I simply fade away?
I'm trying to find the answer I want
But I'm ignoring the call
I don't want to change
I think I'm in love with pain
But the plan was never to stay the same
I will blame
Family I can't see
They don't want a thing to do with me
Wanted closure
So to find it I wrote them a letter
But got no response
Is it really a loss
If I didn't expect anything else?
I wish 'em well

I'm always trying to fly away
From problems I had yesterday
A never ending struggle
Of climbing out of the rubble
Clipped my wings and bought 'em
A casket of empty bottles
I hope one day I'll get better
But for now I'll write this letter



Credits
Writer(s): Fabian Lumpkin
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