Distant Thoughts

Tried to ignore all the feelings inside
Tried all the remedies they gave me
Yeah, trust me, I've tried
Tried to forget you
Ended up forgetting who I was
Ignored the darkness
Let it fester
Now it's coming back to bite
I'm having trouble sleeping at night
My distant thoughts ringing in the background
They keep me lying, still awake, until the moon goes back down
And they've refused to desist
I only love you cause my heart still insists
I tried to leave you in the past
My dreams are ending at last
The hopeless visions that I see
The countless pictures running through my mind
I'm still conflicted
I know I'm probably wasting your time
I feel convicted
It's clear as day, plain and simple
Didn't think I'd end this just as soon as it started
Keep trying to pretend I'll be okay
Just maybe some day
I'll finally accept it wasn't meant to be
Maybe you aren't the one for me
What the future holds, maybe I'll see

Another level
A new beginning
Another fantasy
Maybe in this one I'm winning
Another chance to shoot my shot
Another chance to make it happen
Eyes focused on you
They're superglued with your magic
I've got a problem with seeing the bigger picture
I dug up my old feelings and threw them back in the mixture
I'm back on the mission
Keep tryna please you
Knowing my current record
This cannot be easy
Threw opportunities away 'cause of my self-doubt
Your name comes to my mind when I feel left out
I let my guard down
It's time to put it back up
For you I made a thousand exceptions
It's time to wake up
Even at my highest I just can't get over you
I'm at the top of Everest
Bet you'd love to see the view
Isolated to the core but you're still on my mind
I'm contemplating calling, are you on the line?