Red Dirt

See I'm a universal hater, not universally loved
I do believe in myself
Not used to taking these dubs though
Shooting it from the hip so exclusively on these drums
I felt like this shit's important but none of it ever was
I was raised in this red dirt state
So any shit that you say, it really could not phase me
Every other kid played basketball in the gym and talked shit on how I lived
Shit that I seldom forget, I reminisce on how they could not change me
I used to take a dive into the high and get addicted to the spliff all crazy
The kid, he did a big 180
Sober got me in pits, I pray that this shit gets better every day
I just miss no changes
If everything could always stay the same then I think I would take it
Was blinded by the lights, I gotta put on Ray Bans in the summertime
Conditions made my mother cry but now I'm getting help
Still I'm getting over doing shit myself
I'm reflecting on the distance
That I put between myself and any measure of the hell
Put my mind on getting better
Always working on myself
But the fact is that I lie like half the time with what I dwell on
Was always in my head from age 12 on
Realizing that my heart is not teflon
I'm always thinking about the climb and what I should've held on
It can't be fucking healthy but I've got a wealth of memories
Where I was always dead wrong

They say that I'm a hypocrite, I think that's fucking dead on
But that's the only reason that I have these bars to get off
A fabricated problem or a lack of living knowledge
The proof was never proper, I just wanted to be heard
I just wanted to be acknowledged
And that's my biggest problem
The proof was never proper, I just wanted to be heard
I just want to be acknowledged
That's my biggest problem
Fuck