Nightmares

I'm over you
Not this traumatic situation though
Found out through social media
That you're still dragging me through the mud
Sometimes you show up in my nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
I've been trying to put on a face
And be strong in public
Incase I run into you
'Cause you might say something to others
I'm going through mixed emotions
I already have past traumas
Sometimes you show up in my nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
Now this situation is adding to it
When I get home, I tear up sometimes
Text and video call my friends
I feel mad, sad, and anxious
Sometimes I watch videos online
To distract me from this whole thing or aimlessly scroll
Or I go shopping to distract myself
To try to distract my brain from thinking about it
Now this situation is adding to it
When I get home, I tear up sometimes
Crying
Text and video call my friends
I feel mad, sad, anxious
Sometimes you show up in my nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
Just by seeing you randomly
It puts me off guard
Makes my heart beat so fast
And sometimes shakes me and I freeze up
Running into your friends
Causes me to feel anxious and be careful
Sometimes you show up in my nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
Your friends found joy
In trying to embarrass me
And talk bad about me constantly
Twenty-four seven
This feels like a drama tv show
Sometimes you show up in my nightmares
And I wake up with nerves and feel scared
I hope the smear campaign was worth it
Still having flashbacks
I know this makes you feel better
And powerful
These are the effects of what you did
Emotional effects
All the traits you're showing
Almost all the traits you're showing
Is about narcissism