Better Man

Rewind the time, I'm dialing to speak to a younger me
That's hurting, residing in darker spaces
Affecting my now as I speak
The decisions he made, reason I'm here now today
Look at tomorrow, promising not to make the same mistake in a way
That causes me to look back as I'm doing in this moment
That's the cycle that I need to break

Time is holding me by the neck
But we learn by dissecting failures we made before
Now looking forward, I see the pain I caused
Take some time to rebuild with the man who brought you into this world
Your poor relationship will cost you in your years to come
He dearly loves his son, and only wants to be friends
With the only one who will carry on with the family name

Don't push them away, close friends
Try to meet some more men, women all around you
Is the reason why you struggle with sexual feelings
And dealing with lust as a demon, demanding your semen
So see men and reach for accountability

But what is bittersweet?
You're not a bad guy
No ill intentions, we know that you wouldn't hurt a fly
But hurt people, hurt people
Your brokenness is the root to your selfish perception

And how the world is framed
That's when trouble came
Now I'm left with the shame
Heavy regret, I forget things are no longer the same
So take a look in the mirror, start reflecting the change
As I look back to the future with my present explained

I just wanna be a better man 'til it's better, man
Travellers guide to life, I need a better plan
Circumstances, second chances
Life dealt me some cards, but I really need me a better hand
I just wanna be a better man 'til it's better, man
Travellers guide to life, I need a better plan
Circumstances, second chances
Life dealt me some cards, but I really need me a better hand

My brother from another mother, he bought his first home
Baby number two helped him to move
Living next to an old flame
That got doused, she had doubts
Amazing grace, but thankful for the faith I pronounce
We're still friends though
At least I hope so

I've been told to be mature and simply to let it go
Heartbreak essential to life when getting old
Feeling guilty when dating, do I deserve a blessing?
Unravel my fears, to then apply the dressing
Check the selection, not just picking for you alone
A step-mother to my heart who is able to love a heart of stone
In a soul

2020 the year, but perfecting the vision
Note to self, make smarter decisions
Be happy for your bro and trust your time will come
How 'bout you learn to walk before you start to run

I just wanna be a better man, 'til it's better, man
Travellers guide to life, I need better plan
Circumstances, second chances
Life dealt me some cards, but I really need me a better hand
I just wanna be a better man, 'til it's better, man
Travellers guide to life, I need better plan
Circumstances, second chances
Life dealt me some cards, but I really need me a better hand