Can I?

Truthfully I only do good to reap the returns
Tongue in cheek like between two ferns
I'll tell you how I feel but lace it in jokes
Without esteem, fright replace all your hopes
Since young, we'd had routine concerns
There's drug addicted, pain inflicted friends
Who need me to be grounded
But what about my health?
Seems I'm less and less surrounded by joy
Don't mean to be coy
It's search and destroy
This industry malicious
Which is why I'm always annoyed
I'm really tired of these people complaining
About the way things changing
Because the evolutions gonna happen anyway
And you could die on any given day
So try to shut the fuck up for a minute
Watch these kittens play

The only white dude who's in the room Ninety nine percent of the time
Told by people on the internet
Who barely know somebody that doesn't look like them
That I'm committing the crime
Cause I don't share your whistle blowing post
That's skewed and refined
With false perception that you seek
But if a black man walks down the street
You cross to the other side
But only if its dark and no ones around
And when its heavy population you gone kneel on the ground
And put your fist up
I only notice cause these people confide in me in a smaller circle
They see the red in my beard and assume that I fear the same things
Its really hurtful
I know this shit sucks
That's why I think of turning purple
Every now and then
I can't escape the vortex
Shame like poor sex
Drained out my left ear
With every memory I kept near and it torments
Me so enormous
Strain on my cortex
There's a lot of pain going around
Who wants a cup?
You'll deny but then drink it all in private
All I really want is a little peace and quiet
And I struggle with the fact that I can't go and buy it