november

I walked in that
Morning room
I was such a kid
Didn't know what to do
I was tired
I woke up early
Cause I was excited too
You sat there patiently
I didn't know what
You were gonna do to me
And soon after that
Morning room day you were later playing in my
Room after that may
And then you slowly
Became my favorite
At the time I thought
I needed you
I told you all my secrets
How much I liked this guy
You told me you liked him too
I always wondered why
I heard about you family issues
I heard about your sisters
And you thought
You were the favorite
When you were not
I didn't know I had to go through heartbreak
Being so new
I thought we were gonna last
But then I met the real you
And that's why
I hate November too
At the time I was young and naive
I was tired of my family
So I told you about them
I didn't know
And after the years flew by
So fast I know
I wish I didn't know why
You had to go
6 years was just like
6 few minutes yeah
You left just when things got bad
You were my
Best friend but when you got bored
You flew to someone new
I told my therapist about you
I explained why you kept on leaving
And why I stayed I listened to myself
Why did I stay?
I didn't know I had to go through heartbreak
Being so new
I thought we were gonna last
But then I met the real you
And that's why
I hate November too
It's November 13th 21
Happy birthday I guess
Your birthday last year
I planned everything out
I waisted my money on you
I thought you were gonna do
The same thing on my birthday
But you left the week before
So I cried
I thought I was gonna die
I didn't have you on my birthday
But I was there for you
All the lies and all the secrets
All the cheating all the new friends
It was all you
Why did I think I boring too
I gave all my love every single bit
I waisted time
Cancelled things for you
You didn't do the same too
And when I found that message
To your other friend
About me
I didn't know what to do
And when you came back
lying all over again
I thought you were for real
It was a lie
It was all a lie
And when you told me that we don't work together
I tried to make it work
But then when
I showed up at your party
You talked to others instead of me
I waited and waited i truly did
I came home crying
Cause I put myself out there
And I never do
I tried to hard so hard
To be enough for you
But when I was done crying
I knew you gonna flee soon
And I was right
I was right
You stopped writing me back
You blocked me for no reason
It was all you
And that's why
I hate November
And some of December
Because of you
I didn't know
I had to go through heartbreak
Being so new
Thought that
We were gonna last
But then I met the real you
I met my least favorite
Not my favorite
I met the devil
In human form
And that's why I hate
November too
All the videos and the photos
Me falling on my bed
We laughed for what it felt like
2 hours
Long calls
All nighters
But you never listened too
I trusted you
When you vented I listened
But when I did
I couldn't
Cause you always never listened
I now hate myself
Because of you
I hate people
Because of you
I might of been
Just another friend to you
But you were my everything
I picked our best interests too
I picked our song
Our silly song
Picked your
Maid of honor dress
All you did was pick
A huge mess
I fell in love
And I tried to tell you
But I didn't cause
I knew you were gonna tell him too
I opened my mind
I cut everyone off for you
But when you cut me
I was brand new
I didn't know anyone
I had no friends
No one to call
It was all you
All you
All you
November
I hate you
But then I absolutely love you
I loved your mess
I loved it when we laughed about
Falling off the bed
I wrote stories I wrote songs
About our faults and our daisies
And our boys
And our messes
I hate you and I love you
I don't know what to pick
You want me again
What do I pick
I have no one
You were the one
I don't know what to pick
What do I pick
I choose to hate you
Then to love you
I choose myself
No you?
But I hate
November cause of you
I used to love November
I used to cherish this month
I loved the august rush
And the February love
But now I don't
I actually don't love you
I love the old you
The one who would love me
And cared
I know you got family stuff
But you still have that
Black flowered shirt
At your house
I saw your comment section
You said it was yours
I was in disbelief
You were wearing my shirt
No responsibility
I miss the normal you
Not the new you
I'm sorry
I could've talked you out of it
But I couldn't
Cause you left
Right when it was tough
I would cry all day
And say I was fine
At graduation
I saw your speech
I was the only who clapped
You didn't clap for me
Oh November
November
November
I miss the cold weather
Not the cold you
Oh November
November
November
I miss you cool you
Not the cruel you
Oh November
November
November
I miss the cold weather
Not the cold you
Oh November
November
November
I miss you cool you
Not the cruel you