Disconsolate Remorse

It's easy becoming weak
Especially when you're not here
No one else can understand
Why I'm weaping
Cause you're nowhere to be found
And I'm scared wandering around
It's very difficult to sleep now
Without you
Oh, I can't stop thinking
About how cruel I was
Pushing you aside
Away from my mind

I want to go back
And stop that tragedy from happening
Seeing you gone so fast
Was enough to change my perspective on man
We spoke so little, but I miss you
I want to see you smile once more
Talk to you more
Open your heart to me
Like you've done to mine

Yeah

Picture me, replacing you
Picture me, becoming you
Picture me, believing you
Picture me, dying like you

If there was a hell
I would gladly go there
Just so I could suffer
More than you

Oh

Picture me, replacing you
Picture me, becoming you
Picture me, believing you
Picture me, dying like you

I'm very bad at apologies
I can't ask forgiveness from the dead
All I can do for you now is suffer in silence
Waiting until it ends
I hope it ends the same as you
The guilt keeps hanging on
Your corpse underneath my shed is melting
Into my head

It's all my fault
That you are gone
It's all my fault
That you are dead

God should have taken me instead
I don't want to feel anymore regret

I didn't mean for you to die
I did not want to cry

Here I am, ready to die for you
On top of the same rooftop
I'm ready to meet you again
The next time I see you
I'll let you kill me
I'm happy to die for you again
Please make my death more painful
Please make my death the most painful
I trust you
You can break my bones
You can slit my throat
You can push me onto a railroad
You can drown me in your piss
You can make me eat your shit
You can rape me if you wish
You can cut me where ever you please
You can break me whenever you need
Whenever you need
Whenever you need
Whenever you need

I'll see you again
When I'm dead

AH

I cannot see you
I will not fail you
I believe in you
I will bleed for you

I cannot see you
I have not failed you
I still bleed for you
I shall die for you

I cannot see you
I will not fail you
I believe in you
I will bleed for you

I cannot see you
I will not fail you
I shall bleed for you
I will die for you

Now I see your face
I'm afraid of you
I lost blood for you
I will die for you

Now your eyes, they stare
Hate, I feel from you
I lose blood for you
I now die for you

How long have you been watching me?
What am I doing here?
I just missed you so much
I just needed to see you again

Vivāmus, mea Lesbia, atque amemus
Rumoresque senum severiorum
Omnes unius aestimemus assis
Soles occidere et redire possunt
Nobis, cum semel occidit brevis lux
Nox est perpetua una dormienda
Da mi basia mille, deinde centum
Dein mille altera, dein secunda centum
Deinde usque altera mille, deinde centum
Dein, cum milia multa fecerimus
Conturbabimus illa, ne sciamus
Aut ne quis malus invidere possit
Cum tantum sciat esse basiorum