Salvatum

Even if I fight against the world
I'm happy that I'd die just being real
I prevented myself from being fake
I'll never let them have a taste
My true persona is abnormal
The way I act alone is informal
I hate everyone that I see
They don't even bother to notice that I'm me

And because of fact, I'm breaking the laws of this society
The glass between us is shattered
But our voices still can't reach the other side
It's like I'm on top of a pyramid
And no one cares or bothers to climb it
Everybody is already addicted
It's too much trouble for them to ever listen
Reputation is most important for them
It's either be noticed or abandoned

I wish that I could feel wanted
Many people here have already bonded
There's no room for people like me
I don't know who else I should be
Everytime I tried to be friendly
I'm ignored because they see me strangely
Their interpretation of normal is formal
I don't fit their criteria
I'm horrible

My eyes are always lying to me
I always see them smiling
I don't want to remain like this forever, being empty
Being lazy, non-productive, I'm crazy
If things keep going the way that they are
In life I will never ever get far
Being happy is getting difficult
Only when I'm at home I can be immoral

I wish that I could feel wanted
Many people here have already bonded
There's no room for people like me
I don't know who else I should be
Everytime I tried to be friendly
I'm ignored because they see me strangely
Their interpretation of normal is formal
I don't fit their criteria
I'm horrible

Persuade me to believe
Everything that I've seen
Is a painting that is worth my time
Something we will never ever rewind
I've made countless enemies
Many formal friends want to rid of me
I'm so fucking sensitive
Tramatic experiences caused my trust to be tainted

Because they left me
And never included me
I imagined friends that never existed
Stuffed toys give me comfort
From lonliness and harm and feeling hurt
Harm and feeling hurt

What do I have to do?
To destroy this wall between us
Watch me bleed, watch me cry, watch me lose appetite
I hate life
Not a moment too soon, wearing masks and pretending, I'm far too gone
My face feels like breaking from smiling
Fake and horrible smiling

And I am broken
My identity stolen
Reaching for what's mine is a pointless fight
I got no where left to hide
Conceal the light
Conceal the light
Conceal the light
Conceal the light

I hate everyone
Where do I go?
I can't ascend the wall, it's too tall
Walking around it is even more difficult
Each step taken causes me to feel more violently
All I want is to be free from pain and agony, boredum
It's difficult
I would have conquered the world if it was not for
This lazy incompetent duality
I need guidance
I need guidance
From myself
From myself

I need guidance
I need guidance
From myself