EXIT

I attempt every form of distraction
To deter from the task at hand
So I don't have to face the reaction
From the impact of failing yet again
Swallowing the guilt of repentance
To appear holier than I am
That way I will never have to answer
For the lies I have chosen to live

Letting my every waking day
Consume my ambition to change
Seeking vices to numb the pain
Of the thought that I led myself astray
Feeling that I'll never find my way
As watch all of the color fade to gray
Attention is something I never pay
So Hell is the only place I'm ever worth to stay

There's nothing left, but a shell of my former self
To house what I've built
Yet no matter how high I build, I
Seem to hold on with all my will

I need to just let go

I just wish things turned out differently

It's too late to turn the clock back now
And right all the wrongs to pull myself back out
So I get up again only to be knocked back down
Feeling foolish again pushing on with the doubt

I come to far to give up everything that I've built for better days
So I get up again to correct the error of my ways

I won't be lost in space

To accept defeat is to deny all the things I've been through to get here
And throw all of the hard work down the drain that's based on unproven fear

This ends now