My Biggest Fear

I walk downstairs approaching my biggest fear
Mom tells me she has cancer, I guess I can't hear right out of my ear
Well, I should prolly get that checked out
Truth hasn't sunk in but once that happens fucking get out
Cause I'm about to have a motherfucking breakdown
We detected it early so that's good
Doesn't lessen the worry about what could happen
Cause in helpless times, hurts me to think of Mom passing
In the back of my mind
I cry each time I think of her inside of a casket
It's tragic
I thought I knew sadness
I was wrong 'bout that and
I have fallen farther than ever before because of what has happened
Asking God why he has implanted cancer in my mother, I have had it
With this sadness
Give me back the happiness I used to have back when
I was seven and didn't have to fear I'd lose a loved one to a disease
That would send her up to heaven earlier than average

I'm scared but for you I'll act brave
Terrified I'll lose you today
I'm scared to death but I'll act brave
Terrified so I gotta pray
I'm scared but for you I'll act brave
Terrified I'll lose you today
I'm scared to death but I'll act brave
Terrified so I gotta pray

Honestly, I'm pretty worried
I don't wanna think about you entering heaven early
You said, "I'm not gonna leave now, it was detected early"
But I know one second she can say that
While the next she's getting buried
Under rubble
Mother's struggle makes us all feel troubled
Stressors, hate to juggle another
My mother, I love her
I swear illness doesn't only hurt the victim
It also affects the minds of the people fighting with them
Cause the worst depression comes when a loved one withers
My head is run with thoughts of "What if this stuff does kill her"
Death of one we love causes the thoughts of what was, killer
I just wanna get word that momma's gonna get cured
God, she doesn't deserve
To die, why can't her cancer leave
God please answer, answer me
Or implant her cancer into me
Truly, I can't handle seeing her leave
Can't stand to see a member fall from the family tree
And panicking cause cancer's damaging she
I wanna know why, hope God does go find the time to start answering me
The cancer needs treatment, please

I'm scared but for you I'll act brave
Terrified I'll lose you today
I'm scared to death but I'll act brave
Terrified so I gotta pray
I'm scared but for you I'll act brave
Terrified I'll lose you today
I'm scared to death but I'll act brave
Terrified so I gotta pray



Credits
Writer(s): Nathan Robert Harms
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